I burnt your drapes and let the corners singe
I wanted a true baptism of fire.
Take all my misgivings and light them up.
I don`t want to want nothing from you
I blew the tiny flame out.
But whats done is done.
I want to be sorry.
I want to mean what I say
You know I set that fire for a reason
I wanted you know I`m hurting
Despite what I say otherwise.
I left the matches.
You can throw them out or throw them in my face.
Proof of yet another failing.
I got nothing to say.
I am what I am.
I got my reasons.
It took awhile to find that spark.
I could have walked away
Leave with only the lingering smell of smoke.
But I wanted you to know…
Know my confliction
Feeling it all and not wanting to feel a damn thing.
God, I love you