I do not want it,
But when I do consequences happen.
So what should I do?
Get help or not?
I don’t know.
Lost? So am I,
Who do I have for guidance?
No one because
No one understands.
If I truly wanted help,
I do not think I could tell them everything.
For everything is too close to my heart.
So I stay clear as to not hurt them.
That though hurts them more.
What the hell is happening?
The clocks are ticking the Earth is spinning.
I am out of time and yet I keep going.
Confused as to whether I shall choose life or death?
So am I, so maybe
Leave me alone…