Seeing or Believing

 

I wouldn't ever let you win,

Cause I knew I'd resent my giving in.

It's time to make the bed,

You've been sleeping in.

Convinced myself that I could play your game,

But after all this time, I'm still the same.

A blurry portrait in a simple frame,

Of a humble man who forgot his name. 

 

Maybe I've been the one dreaming,

Of all the things I don't believe in.

 

When did the truth become so clear?

(Maybe I'll be stronger for this... )

I always hoped there was something here.

(I lost myself in an empty kiss...)

In this moment I can finally see,

(Now I stand an arm lengths away...)

There just isn't much left of me. 

(Struggling to find the words to say...)

 

I can only tell you what I've seen,

Though I'm lost as to what it means.

But I know things aren't,

Ever as they seemed.   

I led myself down a winding road,

I found myself too far from home.

Now I know where Im not s'posed to go,

And I'm taking the long way back alone.

 

Maybe I've been the one dreaming,

That all of these moments could have meaning. 

 

When did the truth become so clear?

(Maybe I'll be stronger for this... )

I always hoped there was something here.

(I lost myself in an empty kiss...)

In this moment I can finally see,

(Now I stand an arm lengths away...)

There just isn't much left of me. 

(Struggling to find the words to say...)

 

This is the place where I will make my stand.  

A once shaken, now more certain man. 

At the edge of who I am and what I have been.

And I just don't think that you could understand.

 

When did the truth become so clear?

(it's so sad, but still so true)

I always hoped there was something here. 

(secretly, I always knew)

In this moment, I can finally see.

(There's only so much that I can do)

The truth is I could never be,

(Cause I could never be enough for you)

...Enough.  

 

 

The End

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