I see proud human beings reduced to crying shadows
I watch age creep onto the faces of the people I love
And into the faces of strangers, as they crumble and dissipate
Until they're lives are nothing but memory and dust.
I watch the world pass me by as I go through the motions
Fulfilling meaningless orders and requests with frantic hands
I see how each morning rises with the sun, and how quickly it is dark.
I see young children clutching the hands of people they must say goodbye to
Waving to people they can't, shouldn't live without
tears that roll and stretch into an empty white clinical silence
I watch them wither in hospital beds, they're faces
Collapsing into a pain, that pierces their families hearts
The mothers that can stay... watch...
Until they're child's minds are still and they have drifted into nothing.
I see a girl losing her hold, on everything and anything she has
as she remembers how they taunted and laughed
as she remembers that cutting hurt.
I see a boy who never had a chance at happiness
After he lowered his father into the ground
After he lowered his high hopes into the ground with him.
I see a woman hiding from the shadows inside her head
Through emptying a small pill jar and giving up.
Through refusing to breathe the air in this place.
I watch as human beings become living and dead
Waiting, Crying, Hurting, Losing, failing, Just breathing, Dying...
And as I fall back into that place I thought I'd risen from
As I fall back to that place where nothing is worth anything
As I fall back into that gap between everything I can't be
I lose grip on any faith I possessed.