its about being taken in by emoton , and that if youv never let emotion show, it feels kinda like the words described, unsertaintey of what to do and how to react towards emotional feelings, so they just feel like your in a battle, and they focus on your weakest spots, but no matter what you know you cannnot give in..
here it is, its finaly here, the one thing that i'v always feared. its coming up, it pulls me down, it makes me weak i nearly drown. it holds me in then lets me go. no time to think, pushed to and fro. what happens next i'll never know,its scares me lost's it scares me most, it hurts me lots it hates me tho, oh god i shal never know, but i cannot let these emotions show.