Something worth falling for but it's not like we know any better after centuries of evolution and failing to know even the most simple thingsMature

It’s three minutes
from four am
and I’m thinking
about my delirium,
about
the ten seconds
I had
where I was
completely
in love with life,
for just those seconds
everything
was okay.
Those ten seconds
were completely
out of the blue.
They just happened.
And I love that.
I love them.
I miss them.
I hope to god
I get another moment
like that
soon.
I love getting lost
like that,
even if
not all
of my lost moments
feel the same.
They are important
and they matter
they are a part
of who I am
who I am going to be,
they are a part of me.
They are as much me
as my skin and bones are.

I like the idea
of falling in love
with being alive.
I don’t know
how pretentious t
hat sounds,
probably very,
but
I don’t care.
I want to fall in love
with being alive.
Fall in love
with how green
my eyes are,
with their brown specks
and gold centers,
fall in love
with how loudly I laugh
when I’m happy,
fall in love
with how
when I’m excited
my voice gets kind of high,
fall in love
with the way
I sing along
to my favorite songs,
fall in love
with my body
cause it’s small,
it has curves,
fall in love
with the stretch marks
on my hips
and thighs,
fall in love
with every freckle
on my body,
fall in love
with how small
my toes are
even though
they’re slender
and long,
fall in love
with how relaxed I am
when “my music”
is playing,
the music
I hear in my head
when I imagine
it being
11:56 pm
and the windows are down
or we’re in a topless car
and its quiet,
the night is endless
and we’re so far from home,
fall in love
with my intelligence
I can have an interesting conversation
about anything,
fall in love
with my happiness
and my joy
fall in love
with all of my sad moments
fall in love
with my laughter
fall in love
with myself,
love every second
of being alive
cause you need to.
You’re not gonna
be happy
if you don’t.
You won’t be okay
if you don’t even think
about one thing
in your life
one thing
about you
that absolutely
deserves your love
because
you do
you deserve your love
nothing else matters
more than that
you are so completely perfect.
Fall in love
with the sun
shining in your eyes
even though
you hate it,
the crunch of leaves
underfoot
in the fall
cause they’re beautiful
the things
growing again
in spring
cause they smell
so good
they’re so beautiful
fall in love
with the rain
pattering against the roof
against your eardrums
fall in love
with every season
every breath
you take
every thing
moves with you
you move with everything.
Fall in love with yourself,
fall in love with being alive.
You are not you
for no reason.
You are you
to matter
to be important
you are you
to exist.
Fall in love
with small things,
no matter
how hard it is.
Then
you can fall in love
with the bigger things,
the things
that will mean
so much more
when you know
how to love them
when you understand
how to love them.
Fall in love
with your friends first.
Fall in love
with how small
your pets feet are,
fall in love with your dog
snoring next to you
fall in love
with your cat
sleepily looking up at you
from the blankets
on the floor
fall in love
with the taste
of your favorite food
fall in love
with your favorite color
fall in love
with how nice
the shirt you’re wearing feels
fall in love
with small things,
then big things.
Cause
when you fall in love
with someone
you’re gonna wanna know
how to.
You’re gonna wanna
know how to love
and appreciate
their soul.
You’re gonna wanna
know how
to love
and appreciate
your own soul.
Fall in love
with the simple things.
This way,
when the intricate things
come,
you’ll at least
know how to start.
Fall in love
until you don’t know
that you can
anymore,
cause you’re sure
you’ve used all
of your love up,
having to dig
real deep
to get to more.
It’s there.
All of it
is there.
You have so much.
Use it. 

The End

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