Suppose I'm Stupid

(I think I posted this a few months ago. I can't find it now; not sure what happened to it but it's certainly not in here. Anyway, I think it needs saying again. Can't have my emotions lost and forgotten, can I, now?!)

 

Is there any reason to call me 'stupid'?

Just because I find it more difficult

Than you

To say what I mean.

Just because I find it more complicated

Than you

To express myself so as you'd understand.

Just because I find it impossible

To support myself and communicate

Simultaneously.

If I'm angry

I walk away.

That is how I control myself,

How I restrain myself

From hurting you.

Won't you appreciate

That when I am dismal,

Unresponsive,

I am trying to be strong?

I shouldn't.

Emotions are so valuable.

If I trap my emotions

In a black box,

A vacuum of oblivion,

Where nobody can see them,

Where I can pretend they are not there,

Then I am killing myself.

I become a robot,

Mechanical.

But I cannot pretend the feelings do not exist.

They are there, in their box, in their cage -

Trapped,

But not non-existent.

Nor can you

Suppose

That because I do not smile

I am not happy.

Nor can you

Suppose

That because I do not speak

I am dumb.

Nor can you

Suppose

That because I do not react

I am stupid.