Wandering aimless through the dark and the light
Wandering faithless day and night
If I were to stop walking what would I find?
If I were to believe again would I still be blind?
Never felt quite right since I gave up my beliefs
Never had that moment of blissful relief
When did it become so clear that I was alone?
When did I discover that there was no reason to atone?
If I still believed in heaven and hell,
Would I be who I am now? It's too hard to tell
Is it okay to envy, the faithful and pious?
Can I still wish that I was still so self righteous?
Atheist they call me, but is that what I am?
I wish there was a god, for me to damn
To take all the blame and the responsibility
To take all the power away from me
But I feel that there isn't in this barren heart of mine
I feel cold and empty where I used to feel fine
I can't pray like I used to because no one is there
I have nothing to believe in and nobody cares