Did I just... really? Did that actually just happen to me? Wow. Being sober is clearly doing weird things to my head. I mean, I've had girlfriends before, don't get me wrong, but it was more because it was... I dunno. It was convenient, I guess. Someone I could drag into bed with me or keep as a look out when I was dealing. There was never much in the way of emotion or attachment there.
But here I was, somehow, inexplicably attached to this girl I'd met in the woods only a handful of days before.
I didn't quite hear what she said before her lips brushed against mine again. I was too busy trying to work out how everything had changed so fucking quickly. She was smiling at me.
"You okay?" I nodded, but she just had that half worried face on. "You sure? It's not like you to be lost for words." She smirked at that, but the worry was still there.
I had to laugh at that, though. "Just... trying to figure out how I've gone from not caring about anyone to-" I sort of hesitated. Was I really about to say it? "To caring about someone, in such a short amount of time."
She flashed me this shy smile. "I care about you, too." Well. That was new to me. It's not like I've had many people give a fuck about me before. The smile that crept onto my face was probably my first real smile in years. As she hugged me, resting her head on my shoulder, I tried to get my head around the fact that someone cared. It was like I'd been living in a dark room all my life and suddenly someone had walked in and turned on a light. I wrapped my arms back around her, my head empty and quiet for once, save the weird feelings of attachment and having her care about me. They were there, but y'see, usually when something didn't sit right in my head, I'd get angry at something, I'd get mad and that wasn't exactly pretty. I didn't feel mad now. Confused, maybe a little lost, but for once, being confused didn't have me picking a fight with the nearest person, or breaking my knuckles on a wall.
"What did you want to do now then? I'm presuming the plan isn't ditching me back at camp and leaving any more," that smirk was back on her lips, the dried blood I missed cracking a little. I felt my cheeks heating up as she reminded me of what I'd said no more than half an hour ago.
"Shut up," I said, trying to hide it, "I don't know what the plan is now. Any ideas?"
She let out a laugh, "I never thought I'd see that day Cancer blushes!" I grimaced as she kept laughing. It took her a while to calm down. "Well I do need to get my things back and you're right, I do need to test the vaccine on someone else.... I guess we could go back to camp?"
I nodded. "Just don't expect me to play nice with Scott if he kicks up a fuss," I paused. "My name's Luca, by the way." No one except Rayn knew that these days. I mean, it was on all my ID and stuff, but unless they saw it themselves, everyone knew me as Cancer. I guess it just felt... right, to tell her.
"Luca..." she rolled the name around her mouth, testing it out. "It's nice," she smiled, "and don't worry about Scott, I can deal with him."