I am Air, I am Water

I think of myself like water - fluid, sometimes to the extreme. I was moved around and thrown into many strange new places while growing up. It has made me embrace change. I almost crave it.

It's all too easy for me to become stagnant. I need motion and movement and a healthy dose of discomfort. I worry if things come a little too naturally. I change my obsessions every few months and quickly move on to what I perceive as "big and better things." It's a flaw, to be sure.

Despite all of that, some things remain very important to me. My boyfriend is a total earth element. He is grounded and helps to ground me. He was born and raised in the same town, so we are polar opposites in that manner. But we are extremely similar at the same time. We met when I was 16, almost 4 years ago. We can't wait to get married and eventually start a family. My love for him is a huge part of who I am.

Outside of my ever-changing obsessions are certain things that remain constant. I am a university student studying Electrical Engineering. I hope to go on and get my PhD and become a professor. I absolutely love engineering and cannot imagine studying anything else.

I have also held on to 3 mail goals growing up. I want to work for NASA one day, since I have always been crazy about both aerospace and the universe. As soon as I have the money, I will get my pilot's license and learn to fly planes. I feel silly and useless on the ground and flight is something I have always felt robbed of - in that way, I am like air. Lastly, I want to publish a fantasy series for young adults. I'd like to influence people the way books have influenced me. That is probably my most important goal of all.

Socially, I have never been a butterfly. I'd prefer to have a couple of close friends over anything else. People go around my head sometimes and it causes me to feel dizzy and tired. It often makes my peers nervous when I sit in silence; they feel the need to make me talk. I love to sit and think, but others just find it awkward. I can't help it.

I spent a lot of my life feeling self-conscious and being afraid of who I am. In the last few years I have reached a place where I am very proud of myself, both physically and otherwise. I am not afraid of who I am anymore, but that doesn't mean I'm not well aware of my flaws. I like to embrace all of my manga-reading, Star Trek-quoting, Pokemon-playing, cat-loving ridiculousness. It either entices people or scares them off; I am OK with either.

Lastly, if you can't tell already, I talk too much. Maybe that's why I am hard-wired to stay silent most of the time. Once you get me talking, I never stop!

Anyway, it's nice to meet you all! I am excited to read more about my fellow protaggers. 


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