Who am I?
My name is Ned.
I do not like my little bed...
- Dr. Susess from ‘One Fish Two Fish’
Anytime I ask myself who I am that little bit of Dr. Susess arrives in my head. I can’t help it; I’ve read it enough to my children. Someday I hope they will be reading it to me. Yes, being a mother is part of who I am. I’m not sure I have quite accepted this, despite the face my daughter will be five this December. Parenthood is hard for me. Somehow I make it work and it helps that I have been blessed with happy and healthy children.
You see I am a social loner. I just thought of that so let me try to explain it. I do not shun social gatherings, though I used to be a lot more awkward at them. In fact I have a social need, one that Protagonize fits well now that I am no longer playing one of those MMOs like World of Warcraft. In fact I can be quite chatty when the mood strikes me.
But I need my alone time. My time of quiet. And not listening to music quiet, but just quiet. There are times when I don’t want anything distracting my brain from what it wants to do. And most of the time I want to create.
I am a creator. I sew, I knit, I crochet. I have transferred products from R&D into production. I have created databases to replace spreadsheets. I have created spreadsheets to organize my holiday baking. Or better yet, to spec out the space ships I’m creating for my NaNo attempt this year.
So who am I?
I am a young woman approaching middle age, a husband and two children in tow, who prefers to giggle and grin and act as young as I feel (rather than as old as I am). I like people, even if I’m not the most outgoing, but need my space and quiet time to recharge and refresh. So there you have it the youthful social loner.
*giggles and grins*