It wasn't long before I couldn't sleep, even after a long bath and a hot chocolate which normaly made me sleepy. Things kept going on in my head, about Ami getting hurt, about Jerry suddenly not liking me for no apparent reason.
I shook the thoughts out of my head.
Shut up, Ellie. Stop being paranoid.
I just didn't want him to leave me. I didn't want Ami to die. She probably wouldn't, but there was always the twinge at the back of my head, pulling me back in and flooding over the top of me like a high tide. A while ago, Jerry said to me that he was wondering if he loves me or Ally.
I didn't want to be the one shoved to the back, though I didn't want to be in the spotlight. I didn't want to just be the girl who looked like someone else. Is that the only reason Jerry likes me? Because I look like Ally? Because I act like Ally?
I sat up on my bed. Is it true? I'm just a second to Ally?
School was a blur, as always. I became distant sometimes, but still maintained to stay close. Jerry stayed with me all the time, and it wasn't long before we couldn't go anywhere without touching.
In maths, I looked over to see Julianna smiling and blushing at a compliment Nick had just given her. I looked down at the desk and felt Jerry rub the back of my hand.
"What's wrong?" he asked. I shook my head and looked back over at a smiling Julianna.