I couldn't think past the roaring thoughts in my head. I wanted to scream and lash out. Kyroshiro was there.. It was all down to him.. All the pain, the lonliness.. It was killing me. I wanted to both hurt him and never see him again. I was blindingly angry.
Suddnely, Aria dropped down beside me.
"It's okay, it's just me. There something you wanna talk about?" she asked softly.
I shook my head mutely, fighting everything back. She was someone I knew I could trust. She put her arm around me.
"I know the past can be a painful place and it doesn't do any good to dwell but when you get to that point in your life when you gotta confront your demons, you just gotta grab the bull by the horns and go for it".
Easier said than done...
"I can't" I said, fighting back tears.
"It's about time I faced one of my demons. I tell you what, you tell me what's up and I'll let you in on a secret of mine" she said cheerfully, although there was a catch in her voice. It was that hesitation that made me look up. I could see that I was not the only one running from my past. I wrestled with myself for a while, but I came to a decision soon enough
"I.. got into some trouble with the Council. It wasn't even my fault, I just... I..." I couldn't finish, my throat closing. Aria gave my shoulder a sqeeze.
"If that's all you can tell me, that's all you need to tell me. I won't push ya to say something you don't want to, that'd just be mean".
"Your turn then" I wasn't used to this, but I trusted Aria, she was being so kind.
"I've had my fair share of run ins with the Council. Actually, most of 'em were to do with a good friend of mine. Cheshire. The Council...they... Have you ever heard of a girl called Sabrié?"
I shook my head
She began to tell me about this vampire, when she suddenly broke off.
"Oh, I'm babbling" she said nervously, as thoguh she had said too much.The two of us sat in silence for a while before she caught the scent. "Someone's coming".
I got up, I recgonised the scent before he came into veiw. I tensed up again. He walked up to us. Aria piped up cheerfully, not noticing my reaction.
"Hello, what's your name?"
"Kyoshiro, now Asha, let me explain." he said, turning to me
I lept at him, my knife in hand. "You took it all away!" I cried, putting all my hurt and anger in those five words. He grabbed my knife before it could touch his skin.
"No, I didn't. You must understand. Asha, I did not know how it would affect you. I was a high standing citizen back then, and if you remembered my explanation I too was exiled after my brutal murder of a family of five. They were all very tasty by the way."
I was shocked at his callousness, and the sincereity I sensed from him.
"You monster." I gasped.
"Am I? I just don't want to add to our species. So I drink dry, and then decapitate. Anyways, the point is, you need to accept yourself for who you are. And I can guarantee, the vampires in this mansion won't care if you were exiled by the council. All they care, is that you're their friend, and your sad, and they can't do a thing to help. Now, run back in there and be happy. It's your right."
I smiled suddenly. He confirmed what I had began to peice together "Thank you, Kyoshiro."
I wouldn't say I pranced off, but my step was lighter. I wandered through the woods, taking my time, heading roughly back to the Mansion. My thoughts were still a tangle, but one thing came through loud and clear:
I am not going to run anymore. I'm going to stay here. Kyroshiro was right, if Aria is anything to go by.. I have friends here, and I have the right to be happy. My mind flashed back to a memory of another male voice, yelling at me to be happy, but I forced it down for now. I'm going to tell them everything.
I widened my senses, finding Kyoshiro and Aria still talking. Jay and Imira were in the woods nearby, and faintly, I could sense the others in the Mansion. I decided to use an ability I rarely used. I projected my thoughts, so everyone in the Mansion, and in the woods could hear.
Come to the main hall. There's something you should know.
That done, I made my way to the hall, to finally face my past. I just hoped Kyroshiro was right.