Lilianna and I talked some more that night. She explained what she had thought about what had happened to Garret.
:I get it," I said whipping tears from my eyes.
"Do you?" she asked questioningly. "And if you do, are you going to do something about it?" she asked.
There was just a bunch of thoughts roaming through my head as I tried to sort through them all. :Yeah," I said firmly. "I promised myself I would fix this," I said. "But for now. I think I have to talk to Garret."
I left Lilianna, not wanting to hear anything more than what I had already knew and obtained.
I walked the perimeter and found Garret by himself drinking something. He saw me and gave me a weird look, but I shook it off.
"Hello," he said. "Are you calmed from your little tantrum," he asked with an eyebrow raised.
So, many remarks I could have made, but I help them back. I just smiled. "Yeah, I don't know what hit me. Life's just been really stressful," I sat by him as he offered me a drink.
I declined it. "Look, I think we got off on the wrong foot. My name's Hazel. I'm 15 and I like the color orange," I introduced myself.
"Well it's nice to meet you Hazel," he bowed formally. " I'm Garret Dawes, but I think you already know that."
"I do," was all I said. "Here. I want to show you something," I said taking his warm hands in mine.
I walked through the familiar path with the familiar scent that lingered in the pines surrounding us. Then, the lake came. I smiled at the mere thought.
"This is a wonderful place." he said as I let go of his hand. I walked to the water's edge.
"It is," I replied. "A very special someone showed me this place when I was going through things I couldn't go through alone. He walked me through things and yet, we were only friends for several months." I said as a lump grew in my throat.
I swallowed back the tears and smiled. "But now that someone's gone. I'm hoping to find him again someday." I turned to Garret ad smiled again.
"He said that this place was somewhere where he could relax and actually feel at ease. He showed me this place, and now I'm showing you." I turned back around and looked back up at the moon.
"That guy must have been special to you," he said walking closer as I smelled his fragrance. "You said you lost him?"
"I did," I said not looking back into his dark eyes. The ones I knew would never show emotion towards me for a long time. "He was very special, but I know he's still here. Somewhere. I'll find him. I promised I would."
I turned around leaving Garret there, and when I did, I left everything I knew about the old Garret behind. I left everything we had gone through behind. Going forward in a full out battle wasn't going to get me anywhere. I thought maybe to start over. Now that Garret didn't know who I was, it could be a good thing... and yet, deep down, I knew that I would never forgive him for what he chose.