“And you were mine, not any more...” Hannah snapped and I suddenly felt my blood run cold, surely she wasn’t serious. “Everything okay out here?” a voice sounded from behind Nate
“Yeah, everything's good,” Nate said, giving the boy who I recognised to be the tourist Charlie a look which said very clearly that he should mind his own business.
“No its not,” Hannah shouted, walking past me and towards Charlie who automatically put his arm around her as if to protect us from us.
“Do you two know each other?” Nate asked, “Not really,” Hannah raised her eyebrows, “but I trust them.” The silence that followed could have been cut with a knife.
“Well we're taking off now, you're welcome to come with us,” the guy in glasses said to Hannah, she smiled and nodded.
“I'd love to,” she said looking at Nate and me with obvious distaste. They walked passed us, “Bye Jan,” the boys chorused,
“Bye Nate!” Jade called, and I was sure I saw Nate’s corners of his mouth twitch into the faintest smile which dropped as soon as they rounded the corner. I sighed and flopped down on a picnic table, “Great!”
“Wanna go home?” Nate asked,
“Sure,” I smiled,
“I'll walk you.”
We walked along the dark streets towards my house in utter silence, neither one of us talking, our minds working overtime. How could Hannah believe that we would do that to her? How could she go with people she didn’t even know! I wanted to ring her and explain but the words she had said before had cut me deeper than a knife‘not anymore,’even if I did try to ring her, there was no guarantee that she would pick up!
Before I knew it we were outside my house, I leaned against the front door and looked at Nate, an awkward silence hung in the air. “Well…..” I began, “tonight didn’t really go as planned” I said.
“No it didn’t really,” Nate agreed looking at me.
“I just feel as though I have ruined your relationship with Hannah” I said looking down at my feet so I didn’t have to look at him.”
“Hey, thisis notyour fault” Nate said, lifting my chin with his finger so that I had to look at him, then it all happened so quickly, his lips were on mine and I was crying as I kissed him.
Realising what was happening I pulled away,
“I should really get inside” I muttered.
“Yeah, I should go…” he said and then left without another word.
I opened the front door and slipped inside quickly leaning on the door, what the hell had I just done! Why the hell had I kissed Nate!
“Moment of madness” I muttered to myself before climbing up the stairs and falling asleep on my bed fully clothed.
I didn’t want to get us the next day; I didn’t want to face the reality that I had potentially destroyed two friendships, my friendship with Hannah and my friendship with Nate … my two best friends!
I slid slowly out from beneath the covers and quickly changed out of the clothes I was wearing the previous night and pulled on some denim shorts and a loose t-shirt, deciding to go for a walk along the beach to clear my head.
I pulled out my battered iPod from my pocket and turned the dial, selecting shuffle songs, and then proceeded to sift though until I found a song I actually wanted to listen to, before returning the iPod to the pocket in my shorts. The air smelt salty as I neared the beach, coupled with the smell of cooking sausages, someone was having a BBQ down on the beach. When the beach and the sea finally came into view I saw that if was in fact a party of people having a BBQ and even from a distance there was no mistaking naturally light wavy blonde hair of Hannah.
I pulled the buds out of my ears, turned off my iPod raveling the earphone lead around it and replaced it back into my pocket. I made towards Hannah with my mind set of making up with Hannah for the misunderstanding of the previous night but I stopped in my tracks when I saw she was talking to a boy.
I sighed and began to walk away, Hannah was stubborn when she wanted to be and I knew without even trying that trying to reconcile with her when she was in a crowd of people wouldn’t work, I’d have to catch her alone.
When the sound of the party of people who were having the BBQ had died away near enough completely and all I could hear was the sea lapping against the beach, I stopped contemplating what I was going to do now. Before I had time to think however a voice called out from behind me.
"Hey, do I know you from somewhere?" the voice asked and I turned around to look at him, his brow furrowed.
"Oh. I'm sorry. I . . . you looked familiar."
"It's okay. You look kind of familiar too," I said smiling warmly at him.
"What's your name?"
"Jan. Jan Metcalfe."
"Oh. Where do you go to school?" he asked and my own brow creased this time, so impertinent a question so early in the conversation, “never mind” he said quickly seeing the quizzical look I was giving him.
"You do look familiar though. I just can't put my finger on it."
"So what are you doing out here?"
"Well, I…” I began but I was cut off by the boy,
"Wait, Jan? Jane?"
"Yeah. Jane. Why?"
"I think I do know you from somewhere..but..ugh, why can't I remember?"
"So what are you doing out here?" he asked again before I could reply to him.
"I'm--well--this is embarrassing . . . I'm trying to see a friend of mine--or--rather--she was my friend. But now . . . wait--were you that guy who was talking to her?"
He frowned. "You mean Hannah?"
My eyes widened and I began to walk away from the boy, deciding that I had to talk to Hannah no matter what!
"Wait, wait, don't worry, I won't tell her anything. I don't even really know her, we just met!"
"Just leave it alone, please. I have to go." I said hurriedly, quickening my pace into a jog and heading back towards Hannah.
When I was in view I called out, “Hannah!” she looked up and dislike was shown on her face, “I need to talk to you” I panted running up to her and placing my hands on my knees to catch my breath.