I return to the bus, after a hunt for a few animals. It’s not much, but it gets me out of the half crazed state I was in before. Well, completely crazed state, if I'm honest. I have no idea what happened to me, but I really don’t like it. Gabby has moved to sit with Lillith and Lillith keeps looking at me weirdly, unsure of me now. Gabby’s face is stained with tears and guilt shoots through me. I look over at Basilic with the girl I bit. The one with the innocent blood. I bite my lip when the memory of her blood washes over me, threatening to drag me down again. I breathe deeply and push the thought from my head.
I need to apologise to a few people, I think. It may not have been my fault, but my reaction was almost ridiculous. I turn to Gabby, first and though she cringes a little, she seems to listen. Or I hope she does.
‘Gabby, I'm sorry for what happened. I don’t know what happened to me. Though if I'm honest, it does give me more reason to want to avoid making you a vampire... do you really want to fight that part of you the way I do every day? When things like that are liable to happen anytime, anywhere?’ I grimace and whisper ‘sorry’ as I rummage in my bag for the last clean bandage I have, and get up. The girl I bit earlier is with Basilic. Kissing him. My eyebrow arches, and I wait until Basilic runs off to the bathroom, and the girl is left alone. She looks kinda dejected, so I try to look as sorry as I possibly can and hope that there isn’t a tinge of red to my eyes still as I make my way over to where she’s sitting.
I don’t sit, just stand near to her. I know staying standing is probably more intimidating in a way, but I figure sitting close to her would freak her out more, considering what happened the last time I was too close to her. She looks up at me, afraid, but relieved that my eyes aren’t red any more.
‘I just want to say I'm sorry about what I did to you,’ I hand her the bandage and she looks at me dubiously, ‘I don’t blame you if you don’t want to trust me. After what happened just now, I wouldn’t trust me if I were you. In fact I don’t trust me anyway,’ I pull a face, realising that I'm rambling. She takes the bandage and gives me a weak smile.
‘Thanks for the bandage. I guess I need it now, seeing as I'm mortal,’ she begins to awkwardly wrap it around her wrist, which is still bleeding a bit. The smell is strong, but I can control myself.
‘Do you want some help with that? It’s okay, I'm not hungry anymore,’ I say smiling wryly. She nods silently and I slip into the seat next to her to give her a hand. As I wrap the bandage firmly around her wrist, Basilic starts throwing himself at the bathroom door, shouting at some guy called Martin to come out. I didn’t see who went in there, but I know his name now. He looks over at me for help and I nod. I finish with the bandage and as I vacate the seat, I turn back to the girl.
‘Look, I really am sorry about what happened. Some words can be said so meaninglessly, so I just want you to know that I do mean them. If I could change what I am, I would give up everything for it,’ I turn and join Basilic in his attempt to get this Martin guy out of the bathroom.