I was in love with Ash River. I knew it the moment that realization hit me of him kissing Sarah, or her kissing him or whatever crap had happened between those two. I was feeling a lot of emotions; resentment and anger towards Ash. But the strongest was the green monster that was unleashed from inside my heart. How come Sarah was in the receiving ends of that kiss instead of me?
And then we just made a deal that we would be honest to each other and then a second later he lies! What the hell is that?! And then saying that Leon and I were in a relationship! He deserved the slap he got from me. He doesn’t know anything I’ve gone through, and I’m thinking he never will after this.
I turned my back on him and headed to the house, seething. He never let me in even when I tried to help, like the first time when I wanted to comfort him and headed to the house alone to try and be a good friend. I still don’t know what that was all about and the reason why I don’t? Him.
“I don't know maybe childhood sweethearts can continual their love for each other.” Is that really what he thought we were? I thought he knew how I felt about him even though I didn’t make it obvious...even though I didn’t tell him…which I should have?
Shaking my head, I kicked the front door open and trudged through, my hands curled in fists. I saw Mike, Chase and Billie approach me, looks of worry on their faces (except for Chase, who seemed to actually be enjoying all this drama).
“Jade are you-”
“Get out’a my way,” I growled, pushing past them and climbing up the stairs towards my bedroom. I closed the door angrily, a wave of fury hitting me and the next thing I knew, I threw a punch at the mirror in front of me. The glass shattered and I could feel the torn skin around my knuckles. I started to kick the wardrobe right when I felt someone’s arms wrap around my waist and pull me back towards the bed. Ash?
“Jade, calm down,” Leon whispered in my ear. I went wild the moment I knew it was him. I didn’t need his advice, his comfort, I didn’t need him! I started thrashing in his arms.
“Let go of me! Let go!”
“Not until you calm down Jade!”
“Lemme go! Lemme go! Lemme, lemme lem-”
That was when I burst into tears, going limp in Leon’s firm hold. He turned me around, hugging me and patting my back while I let out my waterfalls. Why did this have to happen anyways? Why did this crappy hell of a supernatural world have to exist?
“Shh, it’s going to be alright.”
I placed my hands on Leon’s chest and pushed him away.
“No, it’s not going to,” I said, my voice a little shaky but I made sure the next thing I said was not. “Why’d you leave Leon?”
Shock and confusion filled his face.
“You were gone. I woke up and you were just, no where. Why did you leave me back to live the life I had before?”
“Jade, I...the gang…we had to cause…I”
I continued before he could come up with one of his witty excuses. “There’s no reason is there? I was just the only way I could speed up the days in front of you, just for time-pass.”
“That’s not it-”
I held up my hand to stop whatever he had coming.
“It is for me.”
And then walking past him, I opened the door and found Ash in front of my room.
“Are ya happy now?” I growled and then pushed him away before hurriedly walking towards the exit to his house.
“Where are you going?” He called after me.
“Anywhere but here.”