I look at him, shocked by what he had said. Although his last words stuck with me; “What's the point in us being here?" I shrugged, looking at him. “I don’t know. Until now the only thing I was good for was causing pain.” I’m sure I seemed absent as I spoke, it was a point. What were we here for? What was I here for? “I don’t think I really have a purpose here. If I get too angry I destroy things, if I get upset I become unconscious. Without my emotions my powers are useless. I don’t know.” I repeated; I’m sure I was rambling.
"Well I meant more why are we all here? The zodiacs. What's our purpose? Clearly we have these powers for a reason. And it's a reason that the people trying to kill us don't seem to agree with... but what is it?"
"I don't know that either Luca." I suddenly felt extremely useless; great.
“Sorry.” I actually thought he meant it.
"Don't be. You have a right to think after all." I tried my best to smile, "either way I don't want to be a part of it."
"No, I don't have very many thoughtful moments. I'm too busy to think usually. I should have kept that one in my head. Sorry."
"No. You should speak your mind, well, if you want to and stop apologising." I smiled awkwardly; he is making it really hard for me to stop loving him. Even though I don’t think I want to.
"Yeah, but I've made you uncomfortable now, I didn't mean to."
"No. No." I waved my hands in front of me. "Really, I'm fine."
"If you're sure, I was only really asking 'cause it would be a whole lot easier to run away from whatever it is if we knew what it was we're running from... I just confused myself majorly."
“We run away?" Did he just say we? He said we. We...oh shut up, it means nothing.
"Well... I guess. I mean, neither of us wants to be a part of it." I told you so.
"Yeah; but think it through, we have no money, just the clothes on our backs and this place." I shrugged, I longed to ask him what he thought about me but I didn't want to ruin it again.
“I’ve got four hundred dollars.”
“Enough for a train ticket to anywhere.” I laughed to myself.
"Actually, I was thinking it was enough to get more drugs to sell. I have a supplier, and I have a crowd of addicts. It wouldn't be hard. I’d get four times more than I started with in just a few hours."
"Luca! I can't have you going back into that business. I'd get a job and juggle it with school if it prevents you going back into that." I spoke rather quickly, shaking my head furiously; my hair becoming a mess when I finally let it rest.
"What're you gonna do to stop me?"
"I suppose I can't. I just don't want you to."
"Why not? It's easy money. We'd be outta here within a day."
"But, I don't want you to get hurt." I mumbled, "But I can't stop you if you want to do it."
"I'm not gonna get hurt. I'll stop after we get away from this god awful place, but don't you want to get away from the crazy zodiac bunch too?"
"Yeah, just not like this. Luca... I ..." I shook my head. "I think you know why I don't want you to do this."
"You'd wait and risk getting dragged even further into that mess?"
"To stop you from going back into drugs I'd do anything."
"That's sweet, really, but I'll be fine."
"Luca..." I whined, wrapping my arms around him. "Please, don't do this. I'll sell some of my stuff; we'll get the money that way.
Hesitantly, he returned the embrace. "It's quicker my way, though."
"But it's better my way."
"Huh. Why don't we see, then, which earns more, and how quickly? You sell your stuff and I'll sell mine, and then we count up how much we have by the end of the day."
"That defeats the point." I laughed. "I'm not going to win this am I?"
I sighed, looking up into his eyes. "Fine, I'll let you sell your drugs. But you have to do one thing for me." I laughed.
He narrowed his eyes warily. "What?"
"Don't hug me back if you're so hesitant about it."
"I'm just not used to it."
"You mean to tell me you have had sex but not a hug... you ever been kissed before?" It seriously made me wonder, it also made me realise how he had been so cold; he had never been hugged?
He shrugged. "There might have been a bit before we got in bed, but certainly not during or after."
"You weren't lying were you? You have never been in love..." I shook my head softly. "I'm sorry."
"There's no point in lying to someone that can see into my mind."
"I can't. I refuse to. I won't mess, or read your mind unless you want me to." I smiled weakly. "I can't help it when you think loudly though."
"I think loudly?"
"Sometimes, when you get worked up."
"Oh. Well everything gets a bit louder when I get angry. I can't help that."
"I know... Luca please can I ask you something without you getting angry or annoyed with me?"
"I'll.... try..." he mumbled uncertainly.
"Would you mind if I umm... If I..." I took a breath gathering myself together, "If I kissed you?"
"I... But..." He seemed to be looking for an excuse. "I have cigarette breath." he finished lamely.
"I don't mind... but... you obviously don't want me to. That's fine." I smiled weakly, walking from the kitchen to the living room. I was slightly upset, sure but I also felt as if I was pushing too hard too fast.
He cursed. Loudly. "Wait, I'm sorry! Gemme," he followed me and as I turned to face him, I saw the remorse in his eyes. "I really don't know what's wrong with me, I'm sorry."
"It's okay. I'm pushing you too hard too fast. It's okay, really." I smiled back, my eyes soft against his.
He chewed on his lower lip a little, sitting down in one of the arm chairs. His fingers knotted together where they rested on his toned stomach and he looked up at me as he spoke. "I want to learn, Gemme. What it's like to love and be loved - and I know that sounds /really/ cheesy. Ugh, that's as cheesy as what Aaron said to me." He grimaces as he digresses, remembering Aaron's words. "Anyways, I just wanted to ask you to be... patient, with me. I don't want to be alone any more, I don't think..."
"Luca...Oh Luca," I smiled, sitting on the arm of the chair he was sitting in. "I will be patient, of course I will." I grinned, I couldn't help the happiness that suddenly ran through me; I impulsively threw my arms around him, "of course!"
He tensed at the sudden movement, but it took just a second for him to return the hug this time. “Thank you.” I whispered to him, kissing his cheek softly. That’s all he wants is patience, I knew he wasn’t so cold. Luca...