this is for joshua karl alvarez-seifert.
thanks for the memories. i wish we had more. and i hope you're happy, wherever you are. <3
i think about those moments sometimes, those little moments that just pop up.
and it makes me so happy to remember those moments, when i was enough;
enough to please, enough to trust.
i remember those moments when our made-up world was enough.
honestly those momemnts keep me alive most nights.
i remember those moments sometimes,
all those wandering talks in the middle of night
god, how i think about those times.
and i think about the moments when we were happiest,
and the moments when we were at our saddest.
i think about those moments sometimes,and every time,
i think of how i loved you, and how you might've loved me,
and i remember the last time i saw you,
the light of your existence fading away from me,
and i smile as the tears travel silently as i struggle to catch my breath
these memories violently caress my soul,
honestly these memories are the only things that remind me that i'm alive
and i just have to say thanks for the memories.