Ash wants me to give him another chance. And I really want to. He's helped me to move on so much more than I possibly could have without him. And I wish I could do the same for him. But how could I know what to do to make him feel better? And how should I react the next time we plan to go out and he just doesn't show up?
Sighing, I run my hands through my hair. I wanted to give him another chance. He's been bearing with me for so long...he deserves at least that much from me. But how was I going to approach him now? I knew he was disappointed with what I'd said. I was confused, and I still did feel confused. But if I went and told him now...well I guess that should be the right thing to do.
Getting up, I left my room, locking it behind me as I took the stairs this time to go towards his room. What was I going to say to him? I'll give you another chance because I owe you that much. And I really do care. That was the truth of how I felt but I didn't want to pressure him through this.
Finally arriving near his door, I knocked on it. No response. I continued knocking for about two minutes before giving up. Maybe he'd just gone out or something. Or he's sleeping. I shrugged to myself and went back to my room, passing the time till I could go back and seek him.
After about fifteen minutes of feeling restless and impatient, I jumped back up to my feet and this time hurried to his room. But when I got there, I didn't need to knock. The door was slightly open and from what I could make of it, I could hear his voice. Curious, I opened it further and wandered in.
What I saw broke my heart. In that second, I realised that trusting him in the first place had been my biggest mistake.