Lean on me.

Why do I try to hide it? I don't understand why. I mean, I love Him don't I? He's my God. So why do I act so ashamed of Him? I shouldn't be. There's nothing to be ashamed of. He's my God, and I love Him. I mean, maybe I feel like people won't take me seriously if I have a God. But in the end, what am I here for? I'm here to bring people to Him. 

Of course, there's nothing wrong with having a little fiction. Or a lot of fiction, in my case. Haha. :) But sometimes I just get caught up in all the fiction and say (or write as the case may be) dumb things. And it irritates me when I read it over. I read it and ask myself, "What have I become?"

Maybe I'm overreacting. Maybe I'm reading into this too much. I probably am - but I can't help but feel that I'm right. I'm letting sin take over my life.

Now, you atheists/agnostics are probably thinking: Oh great, this guy is a religious nutcase. And usually, I'd try to defend myself, but you know what? I am a religious nutcase. I believe in God, whether or not everyone likes it. That's who I am. A guy who loves God, even more than he loves fiction. Even though he loves fiction so much. 

This is probably giving you a strange new dimension of me. Maybe a dimension you didn't want. Maybe you liked to think of me as the kind of guy who didn't have a religion. Maybe you didn't care at all, and once again, I'm reading into this too much. But in the end, it all comes down to this:

I'm a religious nutcase that loves fiction. Some people think that you can't combine that stuff, but I am that combination. I love fiction, I love movies, I love comic books, I love video games (even the violent ones;), I love to take walks and just read detective fiction, sometimes I really don't want to go to church, sometimes I say really mean things and hurt people, but I'm still a Christian. A strong one. I strongly believe in a God that loves everyone in this world.

Even you.

Whether you like it or not, I believe there's a God sitting right behind you right now, pleading for you to believe in Him too. If I can ever do anything to help you, I totally will.

Or if you just need a friend, I'm there.

Or if you just want someone to write some totally awesome detective fiction with, I'm there for you in that area too. :)

This kind of reminds me of that "Lean on Me" song. I forget who it's by. I'll probably post this and then look it up. Maybe even listen to the Chorus once or something.

Anyway, I guess the lyrics to that song sum it up best:

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

The End

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