I just want to sleep, I want to go home and pull the covers over my head and sleep; I just want to ignore how things try and test me, how they try to hurt me and push me into the ground. And all the while I try to convince myself that it’s making me stronger, that because I’m going through this I’ll be a more rounded person eventually; I’ll have raised my game; I’ll be more confident and outgoing and happier and more loving and…all I can feel right now is that I want to close my eyes and my mind and my soul and make the world go away. Why were you taken from me when I did nothing to deserve it? Why were you taken from your life and from your family when you did nothing to justify losing your future? When did the world become this awful ball of suffering in the sky?