I slammed the front door behind me and looked around my huge house. Something twisted painfully in my stomach as I stared around at it. It was so....empty.
I sighed and dropped the keys on the hall table as I walked past into the kitchen. I opened the fridge and pulled out the milk. As I took a swig from it I was met by a horrible aroma and I realised that I smelt awful.
"Uuughhh" I groaned as I stormed up the stairs and turned the water on to let it heat up. As I pulled off my shirt I looked into the mirror and ran a hand over my stubble.
I really need a shave. I thought. Or maybe I'll leave it, it's kinda defining....
I turned slightly so I could see my back in the mirror and I gritted my teeth as I looked at the raised white flesh that spelled out my nickname. I ran my fingers down the scar on my neck and shivered as I remembered how I wondered if I was going to die. That scar, it earned me my nickname, and a whole world of sh*t too. Since then people seemed to think I was invincible, that I couldn't be hurt. Not true at all.
I stepped into the shower and let the water run down my back. It stung a little at first but then it was fine. I decided to go into town as soon as it had properly healed and get it inked over. I was stuck with it for the rest of my life, I may as well try to make it look pretty.
I got out of the shower and paused. I could have sworn I smelt roses, the smell of Sarah's perfume....shivers ran up my spine as I remembered how they had all haunted me. I hope to Christ it doesn't come back.
I shook it off and crawled into bed. As I closed my eyes I saw her face, normal, the way it would have been. She stood with the rest of them, all looking like they had when we were fresh out of boot camp. I relaxed then. They don't blame me. I smiled as I drifted off to sleep.
I woke up a few hours later to my phone ringing. "Yeah?" I answered sleepily.
"Scarecrow?" a girl's voice. I opened one eye and looked at the clock. It was early afternoon. "Yeah, that's me. Who's this?" my voice was still rough and sleepy and I rolled over onto my back and stared up at the ceiling. "It's Kristen. The President's daughter." she sounded like she was smiling. "Is something wrong?!" I sat up and was ready to jump out of bed when she laughed. "No nothing's wrong. I'm sorry I woke you. I just wanted to say thanks."
"Oh, no problem." I lay back down and let my body slowly relax again. "I was just doing my duty you know..." I wondered what the real reason she was calling me for was. She sounded like she was holding something back.
"There is one thing that I do want to say to you." she paused.
Ah here we go...
"Get some balls and ask the girl out would you? You stare at her with a smile on your face all the time and she blushes whenever your name is mentioned."
"What?!" I spluttered and she laughed.
"You know what I mean Scarecrow. You know exactly what I mean. If I noticed and I wasn't in any fit state to be noticing things like that, then I have no idea how you haven't copped on yet. Anyway, I have to go now, I've another check up in five minutes. Think about it, you're happier around her, and she just glows. I don't even think she realises how much she smiles when you're around. I saw it in the helicopter, if she hadn't fallen I think she would have jumped after you. I gotta go now, bye."
She hung up and I lay there with a red face. Was it that obvious to everyone that I liked Dani?
I closed my eyes and memories of the mission played back in my head. When I caught her from the chopper, when she held my hand in the sickbay....
Christ Crow, you've taken a bullet for the girl but you don't have the balls to tell her how you feel?
I flipped open my phone and looked at the picture on the front of it. The five members of SCIT, Foster was grinning like a madman, Beth and Jagan were pulling faces and I had my arm around Dani and her head was resting on my shoulder as the two of us laughed at some untold joke..
Her hair had smelt like apples... I thought absent mindedly before I realised what I was doing.
"Sap." I said aloud and then I drifted back to sleep with a smile on my face and her on my mind.