When Harry was hit... My heart was in my mouth. Until he came round in the hospital I barely breathed, as though my lack of breath would allow him to come round. My heart felt like it was thumping out of my chest, begging to be next to his. And I didn't care if any of the others noticed that I felt this way. I didn't care... I only cared about Harry.
Of course I was worried about Silas, but Harry was first and foremost in my heart and thoughts. He seemed to dominate them.
As the doctor explained to Harry what had happened and that he could soon return 'home', I slipped out to have a breather. I hate hospitals; I have since we were all confined there years ago, surrounded by press. In the hall I saw Louise hurrying to join us.
"Is he ok? Where is he?"
"Silas? He's ok. Well he's alive and walking anyway." I said, my mind still on Harry. Louise looked critically at me. "Alright, who isn't ok?"
"Everyone is fine... but Harry got hit pretty hard and they had to operate on his head." She stared at me.
"You still like him don't you?"
"No. No... Louise.... I don't know. I..."
"Has anything happened?"
"No." I decided to lie. Harry didn't want the inquisition while he was in his hospital bed, or recovering."
"Well, just let thing go. If something happens, it happens."
I smiled at her.
"Now let me see them." She marched past and in to the room with me in tow. I saw Harry sneak a look at me and bit my lip. I wanted to kiss him, tell him I loved him. But there were too many people.
As the others filtered out to go and arrange transport back to the hotel, which was suggested by Lousie so I guessed that she was giving Harry and I space, I went and sat by his bed.
"Hey." He said.
"Don't ever scare me like that again ok?" I stroked his face.
"She does care!" He raised his hands as though thanking the heavens.
"Still very dramatic I see. But you're my knight in shining armour. They way you saved me..."
"Don't go getting all mushy on me. I expect a fully appreciative welcome when we get back to the hotel." He winked and I blushed. Then I reached down and kissed his forehead before leaving the room and rejoining the others. Louise winked at me but I din't smile back. I was too busy trying not to cry.
I felt like crying for no reason.
I just knew that if I cried, I would feel relief.
But I wouldn't cry.