Jay and I had spend a rare lazy afternoon together, Xavior and Harmony keeping us company. We were laughing and joking, enjoying being together. Jay captured my lips with his, bringing a smile from me. Seconds later, I was hit with a bout of illness. I bloted out of the room, calling an apology to Jay over my shoulder. I went to my bedroom, closing the door quietly behind me. This was not the first time this had happened. I felt shaky and sick and a quiet fear wound through me. The symptoms were all there. The timing would fit, of course it would.
My heart accellerated. I had never been ill like this before. I knew what it could mean. Sara and Raven hadn't been the only one to go to the shops recently. I went to a drawer, making sure the door was locked before I did and slipped a white box out. My hand shook slightly. In glaring letters, the possibility became a little more real, stretching along the length of the box. PREGNANCY TEST.
I sat, frozen for an indefinate period of time. I didn't know what to make of it and for once, at a total loss for what to do. I slipped the test out of sight and went to Jay's room. Moonlight pooled on his floor and he looked peaceful. He glanced up at my face and instantly had me in his arms. I closed my eyes, burying my face in his shoulder and braced myself for what was going to come.
"What's wrong love?" concern was etched all over his face.
I sat down where he had been and watched his face carefully. I saw the moment he glanced at my hand, understanding. A positive result. I was pregnant.
"We have to tell the others." I said, fear and excitement fighting for dominance. I saw in Jay's eyes that he was feeling the same. He sat down next to me.
"Are you sure?" he said, holding me close. I nodded.
"Jay, its so dangerous at the moment. What we're doing, what I'm doing.. What if something went wrong?"
Jay pulled me into his chest as I realised the tears had begun to fall. "Asha, we'll work something out. I promise, nothing is going to happen to you. Either of you."
He beamed at the last part and I saw he wanted this child. For me, there was so much fear. I already loved this child, it was as though my heart had doubled in size to allow room for two. Where once, Jay had been my only weakness, now there were two.
"I'm so scared." I whispered.
Jay said nothing, holding me tighter.
"What are we going to say to the others?"