QuestioningMature

So...I'm going to make it clear, I'm still very much on the atheist side of the spectrum. But recently I've been thinking back to what happened so long ago.

Whenever I tell the story, I say it was just strong gust of breeze through the long grass that sounded like footsteps that saved me. I guess I kind of just explained my back-pedalling. I always said if there was some higher power why didn't they step in and stop it? I guess it would be hypocritical of me to claim to be open-minded and not consider the possibility that someone or something had caused it.

Maybe some entity such as mother nature exists. I'm not saying there's a god. I'm not saying there's any higher power. I'm still atheist. I just...felt the need to share this.

At the end of the day my atheism is still backed by the other crap, and even though it could've been a lot worse. My mind was still pretty screwed up by it. Only now am I getting the correct type of counselling to solve the issues – and it's costing, but I guess life sucks sometimes like that.

Anywho, I'm going to leave this subject alone now. I'm a comfortable atheist, and that one looking back and realisation and panicked questioning is enough for me.

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