I tripped on a rock and would have nearly fallen face-flat on the floor if Mark didn't catch me.
"Yo Ivan. Why don't you slow down a bit and help your girlfriend here?"
I gave a little shutter at that word. I wonder what Ivan thought. We came here together on this trip so some of the other campers thought we were dating. But I really had no idea what he thought about going out with me. I'm not even sure if I truly like him or not.
"She is not my girlfriend," said Ivan without looking back.
"Oh. Yay, then that means you are open right, Claire?" I gave him a surprised looked.
"No, she is not free either."
"Ivan, what is that supposed to mean? Are you telling me she has a boyfriend waiting for her back home or something?"
Ivan turned and faced us. "She doesn't have a boyfriend, but her heart was already stolen from her a long time ago."
Mark looked at me. "What is that supposed to mean?"
I gave him a shrug and the rest of our adventure became silent.
Later in the day, after we set up our tents, Ivan was getting ready to sleep. We shared a tent because the camp director required the groups of people that signed up to stay together.
"Yes?" he asked without looking at me.
"What did you mean by what you said this afternoon?"
He stopped and looked at me. "I told you to vent out to me right? And you did. All of your past events and so on. There might be some stuff that you still try to hide from me, but I can tell. You are still holding on to as much of the past as you can. You still like him."
"Jake. He was the first to actually respond to your feelings right? And since no one can accomplish the same things that he did, you are trying to drag and hold on to that fantasy that will never happen again. You became blinded to others that truly care for you."
"Ivan, you know that I..."
"Claire, I love you. I didn't want to tell you this. Besides, I was the one that told you if you say something, you can't take it back, and the relationship might change. But I don't think it matters anymore."
I couldn't believe what he just said. Before I could even think of a reply, he went out of the tent and didn't come back until tomorrow morning.