I just don't know what to do and my brain is exploring every avenue and every single possible alleway to take.
and THINK, but I do not know what about.
I see possible outcomes of situations which are yet to occur and I see so many possibilities flow from these outcomes.
I search each twist and bend in the murky forest just trying to find out how to get out and reach the bright light where the sun can shine onto my mind and clear it from my thoughts. Even if it is just for a second,
NO one is allowing me to clear my mind because of how society sees things as wrong.
I need solitude, but how?
Run away and destroy my family and tear them apart?
If only I could have the quiet of my mind for a second.
I don't think even the great minds of Newton and Einstein could comprehend the amount of thoughts I am going through.