I woke up to the feel of someone twirling my hair around their fingers. At first I thought maybe it was Death and that I’d sunk to a new low but whoever it was I was in bed with was too warm to be him. I yawned and glimpsed the guy from last night smiling at me. I’d forgotten his name. I think it was Brian... Or was it Sam? I yawned again, giving up on trying to remember the guy’s name. It didn’t really matter to me, anyway.
"Good morning" he said.
"Morning" I replied, not really finding anything particularly good about it.
"Want anything to eat?" he asked, still playing with my hair.
"Uh... No thanks"
"Are you sure?" he asked, kissing my neck.
I nodded and he hummed against my neck. Maybe his name was Ryan... No, it didn’t start with an R, I knew that much. C’mon, Robin, what’s his name?
"Sure you don't want anything?"
"I'm sure" Well, I could’ve done with some blood but it could wait til I got home.
The guy looked hurt.
"Nothing. Guess ypu only wanted sex, huh?" he said with a faint smile.
"Well... Yeah. I mean, that is all it was, right?"
"Yeah... Sure. I'm gonna make waffles" he said and walked off looking kind of mopey.
I stayed in bed, catching a few more minutes of sleep before I got up and got dressed. I’d have to face up to Samiel at some point and I guess the sex had given me a bit of a mood boost. Thanks, guy-whose-name-I-still-can’t-remember. I wandered out of the bedroom and saw whatever his name was eating waffles and mysteriously dressed all of a sudden. I arched an eyebrow. His name could’ve been Dumbledore, maybe.
"Want one?" he asked.
He looked away the second I said no. It almost seemed like he was trying to avoid me or something.
"You okay?" I asked.
"You don't look it" I chuckled.
"I was looking for something more, okay?” he snapped.
"Jeez, calm down. Look, sorry for getting your hopes up or anything"
He ignored me, chowing down on his waffles. I let out a sigh.
"Go home if you want"
I apologised again and left, not feeling all that bad, if I’m honest. It was his own fault for expecting more than just sex.
I got home sometime in the afternoon. I’d been planning on going straight back, drinking some blood and then doing some painting but my hunger had gotten the better of me and I’d had to detour for a little... snack, shall we say?
"Where the hell were you?" Samiel snapped the second I walked through the door.
"A couple bars" I shrugged.
She frowned. "Oh, Robin... why?"
"Cause you're not right! This is not the right time to just go fuck some random stranger" she snapped again.
"Oops" I said sarcastically, rolling my eyes.
She grinded her teeth. "Act serious, Robin"
"You want me to act serious? Fine. I barely drank anything, the sex wasn't that great and I just drained a homeless guy. Serious enough?" The fear in his eyes as I robbed him of his life force reminded me of my youth. And I kind of liked it.
She shook her head. "Why are you being so stupid?"
She looked at me, fury in her eyes. "Yes, stupid"
"Just throwing everything that Elioth brought to your life away"
I bowed a little. "My apologies" I said, aiming the sarcasm at Samiel.
She slapped me, tears falling down her cheeks. "Elioth would be furious at you as well"
I grabbed her wrist. "You dare strike at me?"
I felt her push against my guard but it was a hell of a lot stronger than usual. It’s funny what gorging on blood can do for your strength, eh? She stepped back a little, stumbling. A weakness she clearly wasn’t used to written on her face.
"I am old in my ways, Samiel, and I am not above beating you" I warned her, anger boiling my blood.
"I still have power over you. I could have more if I wished" she said, her eyes blazing.
I gripped her wrist tighter and she just about managed to slip past my guard, forcing me to release my grip on her. But it left her weak. Foolish woman. I growled, grabbing her wrist again, pulling her towards me. She would pay for that. Fear flashed in her eyes.
"Let go of me” she whispered feebly.
"Give me one good reason"
"You're hurting me"
"I said a good reason"
"Elioth would tell you too" She looked weak, frightened. Like a child in the face of a lion.
I growled again, glaring at her as she growled back. Which was when she pressed her lips to mine angrily. I didn’t react at first but got caught up in the heat of the moment, kissing back. I matched it as she kissed me more before she pulled away.
"If you care let go"
I didn’t, but I loosened my grip a little. She relaxed then.
"What do you want from me Robin?"
"Tell me. If you tell me then I'll give it you. I just... I just want to make you happy again"
"I am happy"
"No, you're not" she whispered, stroking my cheek with her free hand.
"What makes you so convinced that I'm not happy?"
"If you were happy..... you wouldn't be acting so carelessly"
"This is how I grew up" I chuckled.
"Then I pity you" she pulled her hand away from my cheek.
"Pity? You pity me? Don't be so disgusting"
She tried to walk away but I didn’t let her. She looked at me, her eyes pleading.
"What do you want from me? To beat me and get your anger out?...... To take me...."
I said nothing and she lowered her head.
"If that’s what you want, do it.... I don't care anymore"
"I don't know what I want, Samiel"
She leant forward, kissing me. I kissed back and she pulled at my shirt, leading me to the bedroom. I didn’t put up a fight, memories of my youth shrouding my judgement. I could have Samiel and that guy from last night. Fuck, I could have Death if I tried a little. She pushed me down on the bed, slipping off my pants and going down on me. I moaned a little as she sucked, letting out a louder moan as she hummed around my member. She chuckled and finished me off, swallowing once I was done.
She smirked, kissing up along my body til she reached my lips. She pulled my shirt off and I shut my eyes. This was the life I’d grown up with. This was the life I was built for. Mindless fucking and substance abuse til your heart gives out. Except, of course, mine wouldn’t.
"Robin?" she whispered.
"I...... Do you want me?"
"Do you want to take me?"
I shrugged, not really paying attention to what she was saying. Women should be seen and not heard. Well, unless you’re making them scream with pleasure. I opened an eye when I realised there was a lot less sex going on than I was happy with, and saw Samiel looking hurt. She pulled away and got up, trying to leave.
I sighed. “Samiel, wait” She stopped as she reached the door. "I'm being a dick. Sorry"
Her gaze drifted to the floor. "What do you want from me, Robin?"
"I told you, I don't know"
"Then make up your mind"
"I've never been able to" I chuckled.
"Either take me or leave me alone"
“Well, leaving you alone is kind of difficult since we both live here"
"I'm saying now Robin"
I groaned. "Why are girls so difficult?" Back in my day, it was a quick fuck and you never heard from them again so long as their father didn’t find out. These days...