I stumble back from work feeling completely drained. I feel like a complete zombie and ache all over my body. Not one bit of me isn't tired. I find Robin drawing and slump into the seat next to him. He looks up at me. “So tired” I mumble resting my head in his lap.
“Go to bed”
Robin tuts and begins to carry me to bed. I hug his neck tightly which stops him from putting me down. “Elioth, let go”
“No, I want you to hold me”
Robin sighs. “Eli”
“Please don't go”
“I'll only be in the living room”
“I need you”
“I do. Its why I came back. I was dying”
“Physically. I really was dying. I don't know if I still am” Robin arches an eyebrow. “Death told me”
“Oh” I just nod feebly. I feel so tired. Am I mumbling? Should I be telling him this? I don't think I should. Oh, crap. “What did he say?”
“That I should stop killing myself. I was confused but then I started to bleed again”
“What do you mean?”
I pull my blade from my pocket and slit my arm. A fair amount of blood falls before the cut heals. “Oh, I am still dying”
“Stop cutting yourself then, stupid”
“Nah, that's just a test” I say with a shrug and Robin sighs. “I love you, Robin” I add a small yawn.
“I know. Go to sleep”
“No” I moan in protest. Robin tuts.
“Go to sleep”
“Don't leave me”
“I'll only be in the next room”
“No” I kiss him desperately wanting him to stay. He doesn't kiss back.
“No” I cry. Tears begin to slip down my cheeks. Robin sighs. I kiss him again. He still doesn't kiss back. “Please, Robin”
“I'm not gonna lie to you, Elioth”
“I need a lie” I say which cause Robin to bite his lips. I look at him pleadingly.
“I need it. I need you”
I feel tears spill and know I must look like a broken doll. Well, that's how I feel. Once again Robin bites his lip but this time I do nothing. The Robin cuddles me and I cuddle back feeling a small spark in my heart.
“I can't lie to you. It won't help”
“It will” I kiss him again and he kind of kisses back which makes me kiss him stronger. He doesn't match that though. “Fuck me” I whisper. Robin hesitates and I kiss him again, fiddling with his buttons undoing them. He kind of pauses and I moan his name annoyed.
“It doesn't feel right”
“Please” Robin closes his eyes and I kiss his forehead. “Okay. Can you stay with me?”
I smile and point at the bed. We lie down together and I hold Robin tightly before I fall into a deep sleep.