Why hasn't she seen it yet? It's right in front of her! She must be an idiot, for all those brains. I'm sending her the message in everything I say, everything I do, everything I've written. I try and draw her attention to it, but her gaze slides right over, like it just never occurred to her that I could feel that way.

Okay. We'll try it another way. Why don't I just tell her? Show her?

And she's still not even looking. Like all of that never happened. It's like she's pretending we're who we were a week ago. Is it that painful to remember? Have I screwed her up that much? Or is she just trying to be tactful, to skim over in case she upsets me or makes me feel like I have to answer awkward questions?

Damn. I wish she'd be a little less considerate. I want her to talk to me about it, to confront me. Then I'll have a chance to tell her. But do I? Because then people might find out. I'm not sure I want her to. I want her to know, but I don't know if I do. I don't know. It's so obvious. Why hasn't she seen?

Do I want her to see?

I guess maybe she doesn't want to. Maybe that's why she's pretending it never happened. But man, I can't pretend any more, I just can't. I know it shouldn't be like this, because this is so screwed up and wrong, but I just can't help it.

None of us ever can, can we?

Please... why can't she see?

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Author guidance for This exercise

Recently I've looked at conversations I've had, and tried to write them out. From the other person's view. Without any dialogue. I've looked at people I know, read what they've written, heard what they've said, and tried to get inside their brain and see how they're thinking.

Sometimes it works better than other times.

Here's something I put on Twitter to sum up this exercise:

I get inside people's heads and pull them apart until I understand them. #writernotpsycho

This isn't the first I've posted on site (the other is called Texts) but I decided to make an exercise in case I do this more often.

updated Sep 20 '11 by delorfinde