Every day I spent trying to carry on as normal seemed to make everything worse. I could see the way Alex was looking at me, an impatience born of confusion which made me wish I could run away. I don't like to face emotions.
So when Alex began shouting at me, I could only stare in shock.
"Well you're going to have to cause I'm sick of waiting! You said you needed some space, and I understood that. But we need to talk now. You have to consider how I've been feeling this past month Will! We barely talk any more and I feel like you're distancing yourself from me! Now I want to talk to you about "that" and you don't have a choice cause I'm going to make you talk to me. Do you or do you not love me?"
I stuttered, feeling slightly out of my depth. Here was the girl I felt attracted to, even love for, and she was yelling at me for hurting her and not telling her my emotions. I guess I hadn't been very good to her over the past month, but I hadn't wanted to talk about what had happened between the two of us. It just made it all to real that I had released in her emotions she had never felt before.
I considered what to say while she stood, breathing rather heavily in shock over her sudden outburst.
"Alex... I didn't mean to hurt you. I've never been with someone who has never been with another girl before. I think that in some ways, I didn't want to have that on my conscience. It's a hard life, because there is a lot of prejudice."
"I don't care about what people say. I just want to know where I stand."
I rolled off my bed and went over to the draw of my desk, pulling out a frame that was lying flat inside.
"I apologise for the way I have treated you Alex." She rolled her eyes. "I am sincerly sorry. Please accept this as an apologetic present and a request for a second chance?" I passed her the frame and she turned it around to see the picture inside. A little gasp escaped her mouth.
"It's beautiful! Oh Will, thank you." She threw her arms around my neck and hugged me. As she pulled away I stopped her and kissed her lightly on the lips.
"Will you go out with me?" She blushed and nodded. I kissed her again and then let her free as she went to hang up the black and white photo of herself. It was my favourite photo of her, because she was laughing at something I had said and looked completely natural. As Alex placed the photo on her wall I smiled. I guess I was going to have to work on my emotions with this one.