Josh, I miss you. I won't even try to deny that.But I think its time that I tell you, for the last time what exactly I feel for you. I love you, like I have never loved anyone. And that alone makes you impossible to forget.
You mean so much to mean it is painful to think that I will more than likely never see or talk to you again.Life does this sometimes-bring someone along who changes everything and then have them leave- and I must accept that.So, in an effort to cleanse my mind of the traces of you, Josh I must say that I only lied to you once. The last time I talked to you I told you it wouldn't be long before I forgot about you and moved on. That was the biggest lie I have ever uttered. I just want you to know, you meant a hell of a lot more to me than you would even begin to expect.
You changed me in the best,and the worst, ways. I want to thank you for being there on my darkest nights, when no one else was there. I also want to thank you for letting me into your life, and for becoming a large part of mine. In a way, I feel like this is the real goodbye.
This will be the final time I write for you.
I knew you like I knew a springtime breeze,
and the way summertime bowed its head to the sun's needs,
this is how well I knew you.
Piece by piece you sewed my soul together,
and piece by piece you became my world.
a quilt of dark nights and secrets,
quilted in the hopes of a future,
now hanging in a closet of disheartened dreams.
I loved you like the sun loved the moon,
like the ocean loves the shore.
The tide has gone low,and I can no longer feel your voice washing over me in waves,
I've been dragged out to sea,far from the shores of your existence,
I loved you then just like I love you now.
I love you like a child loves a blanket that provides safety
from the monsters of the night.
I love you from the way you fill my mind with light,
I loved you then and i love you now.
piece by piece,by insistence of the tides,
your world slowly became mine,
and by the phases of the moon,
piece by piece, i was surged farther from the shores that are you.
Dear Josh, I don't know why you were so afraid to love me,I'd have given you anything.