It's quite alright the size of the letter. I like reading your longer letters. It reminds me of being home with you and delays the reality of the distance a little longer... you could say a delay of the melancholy. Don't worry about the melancholy, Anna. I'll never escape it.
I also wish I could too. I also understand the not being ale to say part all too well. You know my history, Anna so that acts as enough of an example. I know what I have to tell you I'm not sure I'm ready to say though I know you wish to hear. I just hope for you it's not an Oedipus situation where you want to know but the information will hurt you. I don't want that at all. I just hope you won't hate or resent or avoid me because of it.
Onto something happier, the fish is doing well. Niji has begun to make a bubblenest under the water filter cover so she's happy. She's been mainly exploring her new home and checking out my roommate's fish. They're both in the same tank but there's a grate between them so they still are separate. They don't usually notice each other but will occasionally. Their reactions are quite humerous. I think my roommate thinks I'm strange because she entertains me and I'll spent moments watching her. I'm thinking of getting her a shell or something for a place for her to hide in. All she has is two plants which she seems to pay little mind to.
I hope your english paper went well. I finished all my work and am caught up for now. I do have some work to do but it can wait until after our visit. One more sleep!
All my love and excitement,