I am so sorry love. I feel so responsible. I am a quite a few causes on that list and I feel so bad about it. If I never left, we wouldn't be in this state. We'd both be happy and not have to worry about how the other is, how they're fairing and not have to miss as much as we do because we'd be close. I wish that so much.
I also wish I could help with all the other things. I ish both our lives could be happy and problem-free. I wish...for many things for us and our lives. I just wish it could be better