Jaimie was back. He was back. He had said he loved me. I hugged my stomach tighter and fought the tears. He couldn't mean it really. Jaimie Evans didn't love. He had people and he played but he didn't love. No relationships or anything.
Shaking him out of my head I got up and went to take a shower. I put the shampoo in my hair and moved to wash it out but stopped turning to get a comb. Holding the odd thing in my hands before beginning to tug it though my hair. I winced a lot and found my eyes filling with tears. Once I was done the choppy cut actually reached down my back in its wet state. I washed the shampoo out repeating the process before putting conditioner it.
As I dried out my hair I was amased to watch the curls still happen in my hair. Sitting at my dresser in the plain clothes I'd put myself into these days I found myself shocked to actually see my face.
Getting up I moved to head to the kitchen but found myself in the studio. I'd gone through a few songs but was currently on 'The One That Got Away' by Katy Perry when Jaimie came in. I didn't hear him at first. "Rollar..." eventually said.
I span round knocking the microphone over and feeling tear fall off my cheeks. I hadn't even realised I'd been crying. We both stood still for a few moment before nervously I pushed my hair behind my ear. I turned away to sort out the microphone keeping my back turned.
"Rollar, I think we should talk" he said causing me to squirm. He moved in and I heard the door click shut making me look over my shoulder. "Rollar, please talk to me" he pushed on. Feeling ever so helpless I went back to my singing.
Then I came to one part, "....Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing. It's okay not to be okay.Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart" I sang seeing Jaimie look away in the corner of my eye. I couldn't help looking at him. He then moved forward and shocked my voice faulted.
He said my name and my song came to a end. Feeling bold I spoke without thinking. "You don't love me" I said then lost confidence looking down. "If you did you wouldn't hesitate. You just think you love me"
"I've not loved anyone for a... long time. I don't know what to do"
"Know? You arent meant to know what to do. You just do"
"I just..." he began trailing off then pushing a hand back through his hair. I moved to leave not liking being so stuck. A hand caught my wrist. "Don't go, Rollar" Jaimie said. My eyes closed as fear curled round my heart. One tear fell causing him to hold my hands I turned burrowing into him.
I couldn't help it. I mean I did love him. His arms wrapped round me securely. "You're really back for me?"
"Yes" he said. Warmth spread through my powerfully and I just let him hold me. I was all so innocent till he tilted up my chin to kiss me. Well, of course I kissed back and when he pulled me to him I gasped in shock.
Slowly his kisses got more intense which is when I started to panic about his activities while he was away. "J-Jaimie, you slept with Kyle... How can we...." I stuttered out having broken our kiss.
"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry" he told me but his lips had already moved to my jaw trailing hot heated kisses along it. Tingles were spreading through me and it felt so nice I moaned.
"Who else? God, Jaimie...." I tried to get out feeling my body melt.
"No one. No one else"
"I don't believe you"
"I promise you that there was no one else" he said his lips reaching my throat. The heat of his lips made my body melt.
The next time I really had control of myself was in his bed. I really was a pushover....