By the time it was visit day, Matt wanted sex at least twice a day. And while I wasn't exactly complaining, I could've done with a break. I'd left him snoozing in bed when it was time to go see Damien, not bothering to let him know I was going. If I had, he would've no doubt just tried to convince me to come back to bed.
Damien hugged me when I got there, kissing the top of my head as I hid in his neck. I let out a hum and the two of us sat down. I hid a slight wince as I sat down, making a mental note to ask Matt to take it a little easier that night.
"You okay?" I asked.
"Pretty much" I said, smiling a little. He gave me a kind of questioning look. "What?"
He shrugged, snuggling up to me. I snuggled back and chuckled a little as I asked "Made any friends yet?"
"A couple, if you can really call them that"
"Better than nothing, I guess"
He hummed. "How're thing with matt?"
"Um..." I trailed off, chuckling slightly.
He leant his head on my shoulder. "On second thoughts, I don't think I really wanna know"
I laughed and he wrapped me in this kinda possessive cuddle. I pretended not to enjoy it as much as I did. "Anyone in here caught your eye?" I asked casually.
He shrugged. I didn't exactly believe him and I was more than happy to sit there til he was ready to talk.
"There's kinda one guy" he sighed slightly, "it's nothing serious though, and I'm not all that sure, really"
I shot him a curious look, wondering who my competition was.
"It's Nathan" he kind of mumbled.
I felt my eyes widen at the mention of his name. Damien glanced at up at me, playing with my hair when I was quiet.
"S'okay" I said and he pulled out the sad face. I cleared my throat. "Um, so... Um, have you and him...?"
I heard him sniffle a little and looked at him, cuddling him when I saw he was almost on the verge of tears.
"I just want to get out of here and go back home with you" he said as he clung to me.
I kissed the top of his head. "I know, gorgeous"
He buried his head in my neck and I kept cuddling him, still trying to process the fact that him and Nathan had... That they were... I shook my head a little, trying to get the image of it out of my head. But it wouldn't go away. I couldn't stop myself wondering whether Nathan topped or not. He did, knowing Damien. I bit my lip a little at the idea of someone other than me...
I felt like shit when I got home and I really wasn't in the mood to deal with Matt. I'd spent the entire journey back wondering if Nathan was better than me and had pretty much convinced myself that he was better at life than me. Let me tell you, that's not a good feeling.
So when Matt attached himself to me the second I walked through the door, I wasn't exactly a happy bunny.
"I'm not in the mood" I said icily.
Matt didn't seem to care, though, going through his usual routine of covering me in kisses til I gave in. I played along for around five minutes before sighing and shoving him off. He looked at me confused.
"I said I'm not in the mood"
"Did you?" he said, looking even more confused.
"Yeah. And you didn't listen"
"Sorry" he said, not sounding sorry in the slightest.
I resisted the urge to glare at him. "What are you even doing here?"
"I'm here to see you"
"No, you come here to fuck me and then you leave. I'm not a whore"
"I know you're not, I just thought... I figured you wouldn't want anything more than that cause of Damien"
I did glare at him then. So being supportive and giving me a hug when I needed one would be too much like cheating on Damien but fucking me at least twice a day? No, that's totally not like cheating at all. He looked at me, even more confused by my glare. I rolled my eyes and stormed off into the bedroom, pulling off my pants and shirt.
"Hurry up and get it over with, then" I said grumpily, waiting for Matt to get his ass in the room.