Why do I bother? Why am I programmed this way? Protagonize is just page after page of ghosts that haunt the virtual corridors.
I keep getting told that I can't help everyone, but it seems I can't help anyone. Everytime one of them puts something so heart-breaking and TOTALLY FKING WRONG onto Protag, it makes me want to claw my own eyes out because it's wrong! I have no clue what's going on! It's like there's an Eastenders story behind my life with them. And I don't want to access it but I also want to make things right.
I'm scared. I'm becoming more distant. I don't feel like I'm attached to anyone at school. But then again, most of my best friends and the ones who glued us together have left. Smithy, Tim, Dong (I know), Footy (I can't believe how much I miss him), and of course. Mi Amor.
So basically, if you have a problem, come to me. But I can not stand it when you have a problem that you can't seem to let go of. Life is too short for bottling shit up. As my infamous grandmother used to say, you've just got to get on with it!
Don't let it get to you, your life or other people's lives. You are alive because you are strong enough to live it. Don't assume you're not good enough or a horrible person or should be shot for breathing.
Das some sh*t I don't like!