Okay, so as weird as it was for me, I had to admit kissing Maxxie was kind of nice. Granted it would’ve been nicer if it was just the two of us but frankly I don’t think Maxxie had any intention of moving. When Alex and Caleb started making out as fell I just felt awkward. I tried my best to ignore it, I swear, but I just couldn’t.
I pulled back, earning a surprised look from Maxxie. "I can't, this is too weird"
"We can go back to our room...?" he said and I nodded a little.
He smiled and offered me his hand which I took, returning the smile. Maybe once we were on our own it’d feel a little less weird. Or it could end up feeling twice as weird. He took me back to our room and started kissing me again as soon as the door was shut. Whoa, calm down there. I kissed him back for a while but then started feeling weirded out again. I ignored it for a while again but eventually had to pull away.
"You okay?" Maxxie asked.
"Yeah I just... It's all just a lot to take in" I said, sighing.
He pushed my hair back and smiled "Don’t worry about it"
"I don't get it. I know I like you but why does everything feel so weird?"
"Because you've never been attracted to a guy before?"
"I guess" I said, leaning on him as he hugged me. "Are you gonna be able to put up with me getting used to all this?"
"Of course" he smiled.
"Even if it takes like fifty years?"
He laughed and nodded. Did he think I was joking or something? "Even if it takes fifty years"
I smiled even though I didn’t feel like it. "Good cause it just might take that long"
He kissed me softly. It felt nice for about a second and then just went straight to weird. I clenched my eyes shut and groaned. "Ugh, even that felt weird"
"Sorry" he said with a slight smile.
"It's not your fault"
I flopped onto my bed and felt him sit beside me, absently playing with my hair. Stuff like that I could deal with and I started humming. He smiled and I started to wonder if maybe there was another reason why this felt so weird.
"Maybe it's Caleb" I said to no one in particular, thinking out loud more than anything.
"Why this feels weird. I've kissed Caleb drunk plenty of times..."
"How would that make it weird?"
"I don't know. Maybe I'm used to kissing guys drunk?"
"I'm not sure I'll be getting you drunk again anytime soon." He laughed.
"You never know, I might get a whole lot more willing" I said, laughing a little and he smiled.
"I'd rather you were sober, personally"
"Sober and awkward and weirded out"
"Or drunk and not really knowing what’s going on. If I picked you up in a club then fine, but I didn’t, and I don’t intend to get a relationship with you rolling the same way I did with Cayden"
"You might have to" I mumbled, kind of hoping he wouldn’t hear.
He sighed slightly. "If it's really the only way you'll come around then I will, but only if I have to"
"You're so gonna get sick of me"
"Wanna know a secret about our dear friend Alex?" he asked with a smile.
"Sure" I fail to see what it has to do with anything, though.
"He was straight too. Vaguely homophobic, even." He giggled, "if I can convince him it's not weird, I can convince you"
I smiled a little, still not entirely convinced. "Good luck with it"
"I’ll be your sex toy in no time." Wait, what? Shit, I wouldn’t even know what to do.
I felt my cheeks light up and Maxxie smiled, leaning down and kissing me. I kissed back, resisting the urge to pull away because of how weird it felt. Eventually Maxxie was the one that pulled back. "Wanna go grab something to eat?"
I nodded and he took my hand. I wasn’t really all that hungry, I just needed to get away from the motel. "I have a craving for pizza"
I laughed a little. "There's this great pizza place like five minutes from here"
"Lead the way" he said with a smile so that’s exactly what I did. And maybe, just maybe, things didn’t feel so weird.