Kate was a talented dancer, and actress from what I'd seen of her. At lunch time we sat around the same table, and she was practicing her lines. I was half paying attention to the conversation that had started, but I was also listening to her practice. Her voice had a smooth pretty sound to it, and it was quite soothing.
"Rosa, what do you think?"
"Do you think it's possible to fall in love at first sight?"
"I'm not sure. I think you can...be attracted to someone at first glance, but attraction builds as you get to know them. Love can come out of that, but then I suppose there have been cases of love at first sight. I've been happy, but I don't know whether I've ever been in love with someone. I think I've come close but..." I stopped and got up, wandering away from the table. Had I been in loe with Annie? It was hard to tell. I definately loved her, but I suddenly realised that there had been much of a change in love from when we were best friends. I couldn't work it out. Then someone interrupted my thoughts.
"Do you really not think you've ever been in love?" Kate was stood next to me, looking out of the windows of the cafe.
"I wouldn't know. I've only ever been in one serious relationship, and that was with my best friend. I don't think how much I loved her ever changed."
"Her? You're gay?" I smiled half-heartedly.
"Oh. Well are you still friends with her?"
"Yes. At least I hope so."
"Recent break up?"
"Yeah, pretty much. I've never been much good at relationships, I always get attracted to someone else."
"What about now? After the break up? Have you been attracted to people since then?"
"Then maybe she isn't the one. But then, it may just be you. Perhaps you need to change."
"I'm trying." I explained my new ideas and rules to her and she smiled.
"You're a fascinating person Rosalita. I'd like to be your friend."
"Really? After what I've told you most people would be running."
"Well I'm not. And just to warn you...I'm straight."
"Good. That makes it a lot easier. But are you really straight, or experimental? Because I've turned straight women before."
"Now that is a story I have to hear. But no, I'm definately straight. I had my experimental stage years ago and it didn't go too well. You're safe with me." I grinned.
"Are you safe with me though?" She laughed.
"Let's have a drink when we've finished today shall we?"
"I'd like that." And I would. It would be nice to talk to someone who wouldn't be attracted to me. And I was less attracted to her now. All I felt was a fresh new feeling of friendship. Good. Improvements were happening. Perhaps when Annie came back she would still want to be my friend. I hope she rings soon. I'm getting worried about her. I leave another message on her mobile.
"Annie, please call. You have me worried. I want us to be friends. Please speak to me."