I left Helena in my house, going home to Annie. She was sat on the sofa when I came in, breast feeding Liliana.
"Come sit down." I complied. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to get mad. I've just got all these protective motherly feelings and I didn't want her here."
"I understand. But she's ok in the old house. You can stop feeling guilty."
"I still do."
"Well," I took Liliana and put her in her play pen, "I have an idea about how you can be less guilty."
"Really?" She was grinning. I took her hand and pulled her towards the bedroom.
Annie's body against mine still felt right, and I wasn't picturing Helena, but then I hadn't pictured Annie whilst I was with Helena either. When Annie lay panting at my side I rolled over to her and whispered in her ear.
"¿Me joderá otra vez?"
"What?" She mumbled.
"Will you f*** me again?"
"I'm tired babe."
"Oh alright." She was grinning even though she seemed to be grumbling. She crawled under the sheets and I grasped the headboard as I moaned. When I felt her pulling away I grabbed her head and forced her to stay, moving my body against hers and forcing her to make love to me again and again.
When I grew tired I loosened my grip and let her come up. She slapped my face.
"What did you do that for?"
"I wanted you Cara."
"Ok, stop with the spanish rubbish."
"That rubbish happens to be part of who I am."
"Well I can't understand you."
"Cara is an affectionate word, so there."
"Well, so much affection when you practically forced me to make love to you."
"What do you want? You want me to make love to you? Fine!" I pushed her legs apart roughly and mounted her, stopping her protest with my mouth.
After her last shudder, she glared at me.
"You know I can't get you to stop once you've started."
"Kind of the point." I grinned, fondling her chest.
"You know, I'm glad I changed you. I prefer you when you have one person in your life." I was silent. "Don't you?"
"No Annie. I miss my old life. It's not that I don't love you. I really really do. I just can't live with just one person for too long."
"But you've lasted this long."
"I lasted, until today."
"Today?" I saw her eyes flash. "What do you mean?"
"I slept with someone else today Annie."
"Oh my god! Why would you do that to me?" She gazed at me with tears in her eyes.
"Becasue I told you. It's just not me."
"I thought you loved me."
"I do cara."
"Don't call me that!"
"I can't stop loving you Annie, but I have to have someone else. It just seems natural to me."
"Who was it?"
"You don't know them."
"Was it Helena?"