I got up before Annie and picked up Liliana from her cot. Leaving a note on the table I took her for a walk in her pram. When I got back, I fed Liliana and then put her in her play pen. Annie emerged from the bedroom.
"Where did you take her?"
"Just for a walk. I'm going to work now." She nodded. I went up to her and kissed her gently on the cheek. She pushed me slightly.
"Can we talk tonight?" She whispered.
"Yeah. Sure." I walked out and went to pick Helena up.
Helena was waiting at the door.
She climbed in the car and we drove to the shoot. She chatted along the way and seemed happy. In spite of myself I found that I was joining in with her conversations.
We got to the shoot just as they began due to a traffic jam.
"Where have you been?" The shoot manager shouted.
"We got caught in traffic!"
"I had to call in another makeup artist, and someone to do hair. It's coming out of your paycheck."
"Fine, just let Helena get ready."
"She's late. She can be in the next bit. Go and get her ready."
The rest of the shoot went well, and I was just cleaning up the trailer when Helena came to meet me for her lift. She sat down with a drink and watched me.
"Right done. Let's get going." I tried to open the door, but it wouldn't shift. "Damn."
"It won't open!" I tugged on the handle again, exasperated.
"Here." She pushed at the door and then cried out. She'd cut her hand on the edge of the door, where a wire was sticking out. I grabbed a blanket and put it on her hand, then grabbed the first aid kit and found a bandage. As I wrapped her hand up, I was aware of how close we were. I felt my cheeks grow hot, and a tingling feeling growing. It had been such a long time since I'd been with someone different. But she was straight. And then I felt her take my hand. I looked at her. She leaned in slowly, and theen her lips caressed mine slowly, exploring. I shuddered. It was different. She didn't kiss me, just let her lips stroke over mine. I breathed her in, and then felt myself kiss her. Her fingers entwined in mine and our lips touched again, this time she kissed me, and I felt her tongue nudging against my lips. I opened my mouth and let her tongue slide in to my mouth, sighing.
"What about Annie?" I whispered as she took a breath.
"All you have to do is walk away. But I think this is your nature. Right?"
"Yeah but..." But my fingers were already coiling in her hair, pulling her head towards me. We kissed for longer this time, and I gently pushed her back on the sofa, leaning over her and kissing her. "I thought you were straight?"
"So did I. But you are just too attractive. I don't know how to do this, but if I'm going to do it, I want it to be with you." She took my free hand and put it on her cheek, then slid it down to touch her breast. I breathed in raggedly, and then bent to her chest, moving her top aside and tugging at her nipple with my tongue. She let out a sigh and her head rolled back, her fingers kneading in to my back while she pulled me closer.
"Wow." She whispered. I rolled over to face her.
We'd been found, thankfully before we'd got too far, and let out of the trailer. Helena had taken my hand and lead me back to the house. And then...well and then...
She was passionate and eager, she could be moulded because she had never experienced sex with another woman. She was exciting and warm and attractive and I wanted her. And she wanted me. I knew that one of my relationships wouldn't last, but right now I didn't know which one. I missed my old life. I wasn't going to pretend that. I really missed it. And Helena was offering it back. And I had already taken the first step.
"Hey, you alright?" Helena was staring at me.
"Do you mind if I...ummm....try?" It took me a second to catch on.
"Oh! No not at all. Do you want me to help?"
"Ok." I took her hand and laid it on me, then let it trail down my body. Then Helena followed her hand with her head. I grasped her hair, guiding her. And god did I feel a release? Yes. And did I moan? More than a little. I enjoyed her just as I had enjoyed Annie, still did. But she was so fresh.
I had to keep seeing her.