You don’t really expect to ever end up in hospital because of a common cold, even when you have HIV. I’d done my best to eat properly and drink loads of water and rest up, but it just kept getting worse and worse. I couldn’t keep anything down and unless I was asleep, I was dizzy and snotty and generally felt like shit. I’d eventually gotten bad enough that I couldn’t really argue against Hadley’s insistence that I go to hospital.
I’d gotten myself a private room just to trick myself into thinking it’d help me get better if I wasn’t laid up next to other people with god knows what else they could give me. I just pretended cross contamination didn’t exist. Without needing to worry about me so much, Hadley went back to work in the children’s ward. I was glad he didn’t have to look after me all day because I was turning into a skinny, useless wreck, but y’know, I was kinda bored.
And horny. Funny things you think about when you’re convinced you’re on your death bed. I might be dying, and all I want is to fuck my husband. I was determined to make it through this. I wanted to see the kids in their school production. And sleep with Bunny. What a bucket list, eh?
If I didn’t recover soon, I wouldn’t be able to go see them act. Mind you, I’d already decided I’d just walk out if I was gonna be told I’d have to miss it.
“Smile,” Hadley said, walking in to see me sulking in my bed.
“I want a cuddle,” I sulked. Hadley obliged and wrapped me in the cuddle I’d been after all day.
"The kids said they don't mind you missing their play," he told me.
“I'll film it for you."
“It won’t be the same,” I sighed, “can’t I just get out for the play? I’ll be a good patient. I won’t bitch about the food,” I gave him the puppy eyes.
"I don't want to risk anything happening to you, gorgeous."
“It’s a school play. You make it sound like I’m gonna get date raped there.”
"A school play with children left, right and centre. Children are perfect breeding grounds for illnesses, and your immune system's vulnerable enough as it is.”
“I’ll go in a bubble,” I whined, “I wanna see our kids on stage.”
"You can see the next one."
“I want to see this one,” I said, accidentally getting a bit snappy. Can you blame me? I might not be around for the next one. Hadley frowned, and I instantly felt bad. I slouched into my pillows and looked down at the floor. “Sorry.”
“It’s okay,” he told me. I kept my eyes glued to the floor, feeling bad for snapping at him.
"Like I said, I'll film it for you, but that's the best I can do." I nodded my silent agreement, catching the smile he flashed at me and thanking him. I snuggled up to him, letting out a hum as he kissed the top of my head.
I was still gonna sneak out; I just wouldn’t be able to watch it with Hadley.
I folded up my clothes and put them back where the nurse had put them, quietly getting back into bed. I felt like the world was tilting under me and like I needed to throw up, but I didn’t care. I was too busy being fucking proud of Danny and Lily. They were brilliant. I just wished I’d been able to enjoy the show with Hadley. I’d had to sort of lurk near the exit after I was sure Hadley was already seated, and I probably looked like a weirdo skulking around trying not to be spotted.
Like I said though, I didn’t care. I got to see the play properly, and the glow of pride would last days.
That and it certainly left room to just focus on getting better for them all.