I tried to make myself look less gross when it was time to go get the kids. Maxxie tried to make himself look less gross as well and he probably did a better job than me.
"If you let me anywhere near a mirror when this gets worse, I will kill you" he said, looking in the mirror as he made himself less snotty. I laughed a little. "No pictures either. I wanna be remembered as good looking, not all gross and skinny and pale"
"You'll always be good looking to me"
"Okay, well I want everyone else to remember me as good looking then" he chuckled a little and I smiled.
He pressed his lips to mine and I kissed back. God, I’d miss this.
"We better go get them. Reckon they'll ask any awkward questions?" he asked.
"I hope not"
"Bet you're wishing you did the sex talk now, huh?"
I laughed. "D'you mind giving Lily that at some point?"
He chuckled. "I'm tempted to leave it just to annoy you" he said sticking his tongue out.
"Meanie" I said and he grinned at me. "C'mon, then"
We tried to act like everything was normal once we got the kids, and they seemed pretty oblivious to the fact that there was anything wrong. Maxxie set to work making dinner and I helped him out.
"I've been thinking about how to tell them" I said after a while, keeping my voice low so the kids wouldn’t hear.
"Just something like you're sick and that you're gonna be sick for a long time"
"And what if they ask if I'm gonna die or something?"
I shook my head. "Not yet. They only just got a daddy"
I could see Maxxie on the verge of tears and I wrapped my arms around him.
"It's not fair. They only just got a family and now I'm taking that away from them" he said, hugging back.
I shook my head a little. "It's not your fault. I should've found out about you and Cayden sooner or something"
"It is my fault though" he said sadly.
"Don't say that"
"If I hadn't slept around, I wouldn't have fucked everything up, or caught this, and none of this crap would be happening to us. I can hardly be blamed for thinking it's my fault"
I cuddled him and he cuddled back. Fuck, I’d miss this so much.
"I'll go get the kids ready for dinner" I sniffled.
"'Kay" he said, kissing me.
I got them ready and Maxxie brought out the food. The four of us dug in, but Maxxie didn’t eat much.
"You need to eat, gorgeous" I said and he shrugged.
"I'm not hungry" he said, forcing himself to eat a little more.
"I know, but you need to keep your strength up"
He scowled at his food before forcing himself to eat it all.
"Thank you" I smiled and he smiled.
I told Maxxie to give the kids their bath while I cleared away the dishes. I’d told him to get them ready for bed and to sit them down on the couch, which he did. I knelt down in front of the couch, giving them this little sad smile.
"What's wrong, Papa?" Lily asked innocently.
Maxxie sat next to me and I held his hand. "Daddy's very sick. And he's gonna be sick for a long time"
Lily looked at Maxxie like he was about to drop dead on the spot and he kissed her forehead.
"Can you help him?" Danny asked.
"No, sweetie, I can't"
"You're a doctor. Doctor's are as'posed to help people" he said angrily.
"I know, but-"
"So why won't you help Daddy?" his tiny little hands balled into fists.
"I just can't. I'll explain it when you're older"
"You don't love Daddy"
"Danny, please" I said desperately, fighting back tears.
Maxxie wrapped me in the hug I desperately needed. "It's not his fault, Danny. He loves me very much, he just can't help me. None of the doctors can"
"Why not?" Danny asked angrily.
Maxxie planted a kiss on top of my head. "I know you wanted to wait, gorgeous, but I'm not sure it can. Is it okay if I tell them?"
I nodded slightly, still fighting back the tears. It really fucking stung when he said I didn’t love Maxxie.
"It's not something doctors know how to cure. They're trying really hard to find a way to stop people being sick like I am, but so far, they haven't found a medicine that works on it. I'm just going to be sick until they find something that can help" he said, still hugging me.
"How long will that take?" Lily asked.
"I don't know, honey"
"Oh. I don't want you to be sick"
"I don't really wanna be sick either, but we're not gonna notice for a real long time. We just thought you should know"
"I are hug you better" Lily said, sliding off the couch to hug Maxxie. “Is it working?” she asked when he hugged back.
Maxxie hummed. "Hugs from you guys will always make me feel better" he smiled.
Lily smiled back and Danny joined in with the hugging. I leant my head on Maxxie’s shoulder. We’d finally given these kids a family and this had to happen. I didn’t even know if I’d be allowed to keep them once Maxxie... Once he...
Maxxie planted a kiss on the top of the kids’ heads. "Enough hugging. It's bedtime for you two. Papa can give me all your hugs while you sleep" he smiled.
The kids shuffled off to bed and I followed them, tucking them in as Maxxie read them a bedtime story. It wasn’t long before they fell asleep but Maxxie stayed sat where he was. I played with his hair, seeing the corners of his eyes well up the tiniest bit.
"Can we sleep in here tonight?" he asked and I nodded.