Either Cay took a long time in the toilet, or I passed out quicker than I thought. When I wake up, everyone's sat around watching the TV.
"Nice of you to join us," Momma says when I open my eyes. I look over, trying to blink the sleep away as I mumble an apology. Ava laughs a little.
"Cut him some slack, mum." I don't say anything and to be honest, I could have done with a couple more hours. I feel Hadley hugging me a bit and I rest my head back on his shoulder. He starts playing with my hair and I smile slightly.
"Are you trying to make me go back to sleep?" because it's working. He smiles and kisses the top of my head.
"Sorry." I let out a quiet hum, closing my eyes as he hugs me a bit more. I wish it was just us. It feels weird being all sleepy and huggy in front of everyone. I almost feel vulnerable for some reason. Dunno why. Hadley goes back to playing with my hair again and I have to concentrate on remaining conscious. I hear him giggle a little and I glare at him sleepily. Don't laugh when you were the reason I was awake all night.
Okay, that's not strictly true, or fair. But whatever.
He gives me a fake hurt look, "I liked you better when you were asleep." I smile slightly and pretend to fall asleep again. Which almost backfires on me, because the moment my eyes are closed and I've made myself totally relax again, I remember just how tired I am. "Don't actually go to sleep," he says prodding me.
"Thought you preferred me asleep?" I chuckle, opening my eyes to see him pouting. I smile and refocus on being awake.
"Honestly, anyone'd think you were the anaemic one," he says with a chuckle.
"What?" Momma Smith cuts in and I hold back a sigh.
"Nothing," I mutter, "it's just a joke."
"Strange sense of humour," she says and I shrug. Well what else is there to say? She gives me this unamused look and I kiss Hadley's neck.
"Careful with your jokes next time, Hadley," I murmur
"Why am I getting blamed?" Hadley asks with this shocked face.
"Because I said so." He gives me this fake hurt face and I can almost hear what's coming next before he even opens his mouth.
"I don't like you now."
"Oh, okay then," I sigh and put on a sad face. He's still got his hurt face on and I start to sulk. Which he ignores. I can keep this up all day, Bunny boy. Apparently so can he. I notice Ava watching us, her eyebrow raised slightly. I hold back a chuckle, keeping up the sulky face as I cuddle him. He still ignores me.
"What's even happening?" Ava asks, her eyebrow not moving from where it is, nearing her hairline.
"He's being silly and ignoring me," I tut.
"I'm not being silly," he pouts.
Ava laughs, "Hadley, you're such a girl."
"Ignoring the person who would at some point, probably like to marry you is a little silly, don't you think?" I whisper in his ear. He shakes his head and I let go of him, huffing. He pouts again. "Nuh. You want to ignore me, that's fine. I'm going outside for a smoke." I try to get up, but he doesn't let me.
"Don't think so."
"Oh, so you don't wanna ignore me that much then." He shoots me a fake glare.
"You're an asshole." I giggle and it's Hadley's turn to sulk, apparently. I cuddle him, and thought he keeps sulking, he cuddles back. He smiles as I peck him on the cheek. I rest my head on his shoulder, smiling as he traces random patterns on my arm. It kinda tickles. He kisses me softly and I kiss back just as softly, still trying to ignore everyone else in the room around us. As he hums, I can't help but notice how Ava smiles and Momma Smith sort of averts her gaze. I feel a tiny frown tug at my features at that. Apparently Hadley hasn't noticed his mother looking away and asks me what I'm frowning for.
I look back at him and shrug slightly, trying to get the frown off my face. I think I just about manage it. He has this look on his face that says he's still kinda wondering what it was for, but there's no point in upsetting everyone again so I just put my head back on his shoulder, smiling again as he huggles me. Neither of us really move after that, perfectly happy to just stay how we are.
At least I am until I notice Cayden huggling Ava. I can't help but get the feeling that somehow me and Hadley openly snuggling like this is the reason. It sort of sets me off doubting that he's been okay at all over the last few days and I can already tell that this is gonna keep me up for another night.
"You keep frowning," Hadley says, kissing my cheek, and it's only then that I realise I've ended up doing it again.
"I need a drink," I mutter, dislodging myself a little reluctantly. I hear Hadley sigh a little bit as I go out to the kitchen for said ‘drink', but pretty much ignore it. I need a break from feeling so fucking guilty all the time for what's happened to Cayden.