I stay there, leaning against the door for a while, just sort of staring at the floor. Hadley gives me a curious look.
"What did I miss?" I just kinda shrug. I don't really know what to say. Cayden just left because of me. I don't even know where he's going. "Need a hug?" I hesitate, not wanting to be needy all over again.
But fuck it. I nod after a tiny hesitation and feel a little better as he hugs me. I hug back, listening as he hums a bit, pecking me on the lips. If only a hug could make all this go away, huh? When I don't say anything, he hugs me a bit more, and I close my eyes.
"I dunno where he's going," I whisper.
"He'll be fine," he says kissing my forehead.
"He's leaving because he can't be around me anymore," I mumble. Hadley looks at me, confused.
"He's leaving because of me!" I snap and instantly feel bad, "sorry." He just hugs me closer and I sigh. He pecks me on the lips and I want to kiss him, but I can't seem to make my lips work. I rest my forehead on his instead. He plays with my hair absently and I keep my eyes closed, ‘cause I'm dangerously close to tears. He keeps playing with it and starts humming something softly. I sniffle
"Sorry," I mutter quietly.
"I'm being fucking pathetic," I say, kinda disgusted at myself. I always knew I wasn't exactly a strong person, but this is a new low for me. Usually I go out and get drunk or something to unwind and sort things out, not mope around for ages crying over shit.
He puts a hand either side of my face, "No you're not."
"I feel it. I don't tend to sit around crying over stuff."
"Then we just need to do something to cheer you up, don't we?" he gives me this tiny smile that I try to return, but my lips refuse to listen to me again.
"C'mon, anything that'll cheer you up, I'll do it." I manage to smile a little at that. This is where I should say sex.
"I dunno. Just a night in with you," I mumble. He kisses me and I force my lips to obey me again, kissing him back. He smiles. "We should finish cleaning up in here. I-in case he comes back." I hope he comes back. I'm pretty sure that he won't, for some reason. It felt kind of... I dunno. Final.
I let go of Hadley and sort of shuffle back into Cay's bedroom starting to clean up again. He follows me in, cleaning out Gary's tank. When I'm done changing the sheets on the bed, I flop down on it. Hadley joins me a moment later, lying down beside me. He puts an arm around my waist and I rest my head on his chest.
He kisses the top of my head. "I meant what I said just now."
"Cheering you up. I'll do whatever it takes." I didn't think it was possible to be more in love with the guy. I shuffle up a little so that I can kiss him. He kisses back and I snuggle up to him a little. It feels weird doing that on Cay's bed, but I can't really be bothered to move right now. Smiling, he huggles me and I feel myself relaxing a little as he traces circles on my back. I kiss him again, lightly, suggesting we go back home. Kissing back, he agrees and somehow, we find ourselves back at my apartment.