Why did I run away? Maybe because I kissed you when you're engaged? Maybe because I ruin everything for people? I stared down at her blank eyes, and for once was glad she couldn't see. Because if she could, she would see the pain in my face as I tried to work out what to do.
"Annie, you're engaged. What other reason would I have to run away?"
"I'm not sure if I want to be engaged."
"What?" I stared at her blank eyes as she twisted her face in thought.
"I'm not sure...everything was so clear and now..."
There we go, one little kiss and I'd managed to spoil everything like I always do.
"Annie, stop please. You're happy with this guy. If you want him, marry him. Or just date him. But don't let me stand in the way. I'll go out. I'll date. I'll be ok. It's you I'm worried about."
Her sightless eyes stared at me.
"But what if it's you I'm supposed to be with?"
My heart leapt and sank in the same moment. What if we were supposed to be together? But...
"Annie, I think we've both realised I can't hold down a relationship...and I can't hurt you. That's why I was happy that you had someone."
"You didn't look happy."
"Well give me props, it was a bit of a shock."
"Yeah, and Kate was a bit of a shock for me."
"Well Kate is straight, I told you."
"She is not..."
"No she really is. I didn't want you to worry about me, so my new friend suggested we pretended we were going out."
We sat awkwardly.