I didn't dare step in on all the drama and Allie didn't want me in it either. We were right now lying on my couch. Her arms were around me and she tilted her face up for a kiss. I was about to kiss her when... Juliette's face flashed through my mind and all I could do was look away from Allie in shame.
She frowned tilting her head. "What's wrong?"
"I....I need to tell you something Allie" I stuttered. My heart was racing. I couldn't loser her but she had to know. I couldn't ever enjoy kissing Allie again knowing what I did.
"What is it?" she asks stroking my cheek. I look at her with sad eyes and she realises that this is serious. "Romeo, I'm not gonna leave you"
"I-I kissed Juliette" I stutter. She freezes and pain consumes her eyes. She goes silent. "I'm sorry"
She nods and hugs me burying her face in my chest. "Do you want to be with her?" she asks.
"I...." I trail off. Do I? I can't lie to Allie. I need to give her the truthful answer but I really don't know. "I don't know"
"Well, maybe we should take a break till you do" she says sitting up.
"No, Allie. Please" I beg sitting up watching her pull on her shoes. "I still love you"
She turns and looks at me putting a hand on my cheek. "I know that but you need to work this out and I'll pressure your desision being her" she replies then kisses me lightly. "I'll see you tommorow, okay?"
I nod and look at the floor. I hear the front door open and close. I feel pain, confusion. Who do I really want to be with? I love Allie but do I want to be with her. I mean you can love someone but not be with them can't you... yeah, like family.
Is that all Allie's suddenly become to me?
I don't know. I bet Shakespeare's Romeo didn't have this much trouble choosing over Rosaline and Juliet. He fell for Juliet and didn't look back. I can't do that to Allie. I can't just dump her.
This is too hard. What do I do?