I actually quite happily jumped in the driver’s seat and let my wild side take over as I quickly drove down the highway, one problem. I didn’t really know where I was going, so I read Rayn’s mind the whole way. Trying my best to get round the, “Oh my God, we’re gonna crash!” thoughts. I didn’t want to talk, I had nothing to think about anymore but I didn’t want to talk.
I don’t know, I guess I’m a little hazy as to why Luca was kissing me and I had no recognition of it. “It was because of me, Nigh.” That voice again, wait, Nigh? I thought I was Gemme. That voice seemed to disagree and she explained everything. It made sense, but, that means I’m not Gemme and I’m nothing like the one Luca loves! “Bingo.”
But the whole thing made me a little uneasy. I pulled over from the road and hit a petrol station where I swiftly ran around the corner of it, sinking to the floor. Does that mean... I wasn’t real? I’m not a real person I’m just the figment in your mind? “Umm, yes, but, you’re very nice and you’ve always helped me.”
No, no, this can’t be real. You’re lying! “No, I’m not. But I need you to be strong. I need you to be strong so I can come back and we can be one again.” I’d love to get out of this, I would. But can’t I just live in someone else’s body? “Doesn’t work like that, look. Luca’s coming ask him about Nigh.”
Fine! I will. But, he had already come round the corner and she was about to call my bluff, so, I get up and look at him. “Oh, Luca, hello,” I smiled as best I could, despite still not wanting to talk.
“You okay?” Well, it was as good a question as any and one I could answer rather easily.
"Yeah, just being told you're not actually real takes its toll."
"Sure you're real... you're just not the dominant personality usually," he muttered, opening his arms to offer a hug.
"Yeah but, why...?" I murmured, not sure how to finish it as I hugged him back.
“Why what?” Good question.
“Why does no body love me?” I asked, it was good a question as any as well and awoke the voice inside my head again. “I love you, Nigh. And not because I have to either, you’ve always helped me and if I could replace Luca and hug you right now. I would.”
He sighed and hugged me slightly tighter. "I do. I love you and Gemme, I just got so distracted by the fact that you couldn't even remember who I was and I didn't really figure that this would happen. I'm sorry I've been so unfair."
“But you'd rather have her." That much is clear.
"I'd fallen for her before I knew about you," Yeah, of course. I smiled. “I want to talk to you, Nigh. Just sleep and I’ll find you there.” Okay.
"I'm sorry, okay?"
"Yeah, yeah, come on, I was never the sentimental type." He pulled back and half smiled and I smiled wider back.
"The more memories we get back the stronger Gemme will become, the quicker she can come back. Rayn'll have to drive from here though."
"Yeah, okay," he kissed me on the cheek and took my hand. I don’t do sentimental, so he takes my hand. Finally knowing my true name, I guess I’m starting to get myself back. I need shorter hair and more leathery clothes but, this body’s okay.
When we get back to the car I tell Rayn he’s driving and that I’m tired. He takes the wheel and I slip into the middle chair, I lean on Luca. “Don’t get any ideas on love; I’m using you as a pillow. That’s it.” I warned.
"I wouldn't have thought I would make a very good pillow," he muttered and to say he didn’t like talking he sure blabbered on a bit.
"Not like I have any choice, you're the best I've got, now shut up and let me get out of this body, will you?" He fell silent and I did too as I slowly closed my eyes to be greeted by the beach, but instead of two naked figures Gemme was stood facing me. “Hello, Nigh.”