Luca: happy. And worried. Meh.Mature

So Gemme's afraid that if she records a B-side song she'll get attacked again for having a good voice? It did seem a bit stupid, but there're plenty of stupid things in my life that have screwed me up over the years. So I just hug her silently, ignoring the curious glances I get from the other guys.

"So, uh, you wanna go back to working on that song, or d'ya wanna give it a break for a bit?" I ask after a while.

"No, I'm fine. Let's go work on the song." I nod and hold her for a second longer before standing up and walking back over to the back sofa with her.

"Wanna tell them you'll do it or shall I?" I ask as we sit down.

"You can," she whispers. I put an arm around her waist, doing my best to be comforting as I tell them she'll do the song. Damien smiles quietly; Phil nods approvingly and says something about studio timings that I don't listen to. Rayn giggles a "yay!" and bursts out laughing. Sometimes, I think his mom shook him when he was a kid.

"So, do we have any more verses?" She mumbles.

"No, we figured we'd leave the words to you and Cancer. We were working on guitar parts instead," Phil shrugs.

"Do you have any ideas, Luca?" Gemme asks and I shake my head.

"No, not really. I just kinda came up with the chorus while I was driving, I didn't really think it would get this far."

"Oh, well, I don't really have any ideas either."

"Ah, don't worry about it. We've got quite a way to get back to New York anyways, so y'know. We can come back to it some other time," Damien says, playing random things on the guitar.

"A knight in shining armor... hmm," She pauses, apparently stuck in thought. I was watching Damien playing the guitar but now I look at Gemme, wondering what she's thinking. "At first I saw you,  shining, shining there for me. Then it all just fell away, and left you broken. Now I see, that you're not the knight of fables, Or the shining pillar of fame, You're the fallen star, that shines, That's shining just for me." She sings, looking at me and meeting my eyes. I smile and sing the chorus back to her.

"That could be all we need," I grin, giving her a quick kiss on the cheek as the other guys nod approvingly.

"Okay," she mutters and I look back at her

"You okay?" I ask quietly as the others start talking about how we're gonna get time to record this as well as Ashes. Or at least, Phil and Damien do. Rayn starts pulling retarded faces at Alice again.

"Yeah." She smiles, taking the chance while Alice's occupied to kiss me. "I just missed you, that's all."

"If you're sure," I say, kissing her back. I'm not convinced; I guess the whole singing thing is still on her mind though, so I just push the thought out of my head.

"I am," she tells me and I smile, squeezing her slightly. "Oh, Luca?" Gemme asks.


"If it does turn into an album. I don't want my name on there." Hmm.

"Well, we have to put some name on there. Legal shit like that. Just make up a name," I shrug.

"Then just put Phoenix." I think about it for a second and nod.

"Sure," I smile.

I just really hope that this time around with Gemme works out better than the last time. I'm happy again and life has become liveable.

I'm just kinda worried right now about my addictions. When I'm busy like this, it's okay, I don't have any real time to think about it, but when I go to bed or we get bored of working on stuff, I have nothing to keep me from wanting it. I know you'll probably think like, "oh, you have Gemme now, quit whining," but I had Gemme before and it didn't stop me craving it then, or taking it.

I sigh and push that thought out of my head too, dreading when the others decide to go and do their own thing.



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